A Killers Diary

hope

[A/N:   Shhiiit guys, I'm sorry this took Soooooooooooo FUKIN long! I had to be up helping my fam for while and haven't been able to do shit with shit. Soo yee, but hope you guys enjoy this! I love you all and I'm surprised your even still here. @-@ ]

Chapter 11

As soon as I heard his foot steps my tummy growled so hard it shook my whole body. With intent eyes plastered onto him I watched him as he waltzed in and got by the table I was on. He stood there with a bowl of some type of eat able substance in it. He reached over slowly and rubbed the right side of my face wiping off more left over tears.

"You did great after you stopped screaming my darling. I even made you chicken soup." He held the bowl towords me, "ohh, shit.. sorry." He put the bowl down on the tray and softly undid my restraints. Once they were off he helped me sit up without hurting my legs or wrists too bad. Then gave me the bowl. I shoved about 3 spoon fulls of it into my mouth, stopped shortly,and slowed down so I wouldn't get sick or get 'decorated' again. "Good"

I looked deeply into my bowl as I watched the soup jiggle slightly in it. I jumped at him putting his hand on my shoulder and looked up with horror thinking he will hurt me more. "If  bring you down stairs you have to not run away, if you do I will have to punish you. Ok?" He spoke softly and rubbed my right cheek causing that eye to slightly close.

"O-ok. But can I go to my old room fi-"

"Don't you dare run, you can't go far with your cuts anyways."  He interrupted me with no hesitants, I just shut my mouth. He stood up and took my bowl of food away, picked me up over his left shoulder softly, and started to walk down stairs. I just held onto his hoodie and stayed still as we made our way through the house. His steps were  taken with care and were precise. Once were down stairs the sun enveloped me. He took a soft turn to the right and entered a room. He lightly put me down on the bed that occupied it.

"I'll be right back, sweets." And with that he turned and started walking out, shutting the door on his way. I looked to my left to see crystal munching on some bread happily.

"H-hay, I missed you!" Once she noticed my presents she squeaked happily and scampered over to me landing on the bed and jumping on my legs licking my hand. I restrained from pushing her off because of the pain and picked her up and hugged her. My eyes burned with tears of joy as she voiced her depth of joy after seeing me again.

"I figured that little guy belonged to you. They seem to like bread." The sudden voice made me jump as crystal seemed affected by the man now leaning in the door way. I wasn't sure what to say so I just stayed quite. He walked closer, holding out his hand. "Sorry, I forgot your food sweetie." I reached out for the bowl hesitantly as I put my little buddy down. As I took my bites of the cold soup, I could feel his eyes glued on me intently. "I - if it's cold, I can warm it up for you... if you want." I just looked up and nodded. He took the bowl and added, "I know you know this house but, do you wanna come with me?" He held out his hand, awaiting mine. I abliged and he helped me to my feet softly. I had a limp when I walked but the pain was bearable. "I can carry you if you need.." His voice was met with hesitance and a lining of guilt. Tho I couldn't be sure because I can't see is face.

"I can ha--"

"I totally can, I don't mind at all. It's my fault anyways, so I should help you out as much as I can.." He cut me off, and what he said filled me to the brim with confusion.

"No, it's ok. I have to work it out myself. " My voice went soft, "are... are you guilty?" He stopped in his tracks and rubbed the back of his neck under his hoodie, and I assumed he was thinking. After a while of uncomfortable silence, he started walking with me. Still going at a slow pace for me to keep up. His hand felt warm under his gloves and I wondered if he was hot because of wearing all of those clothes.

"Yes." His voice was loud and sure. As we entered the kitchen he pulled out a chair ND gestured to it for me.

"Why did you do it than?" I asked him out of curiosity more than anything. He put the soup in the pot and turned on the stove to heat it up for me.

"Well..." as he paused he stirred the contexts in the pot. "Have you ever needed to do something, before you do something worse?" His strong voice sounded soft.

"You mean like..." as I thought he put the soup back in the bowl, turned off the stove, and came to give me my soup, "when... well... I don't really know." He sat down with me as I started to eat once again.

"Well than, when you know what I kinda mean I'll tell you. But for this moment in time, how about we ask simple questions and get to know each other?" A little disappointed I just nodded and decided to ask the first question.

"How about,... How old are you?" I looked at him just waiting for answer as I ate calmly.

"I am 17 years old. What's your rats name?" He sat back as we continued our conversation.

"Her name is Crystal. What's your favorite color?"

"Bright blue, same as your eyes. What's your favorite colour?"

"Yellow, not bright yellow though. What's your favorite animal?"

"Panther, and what's your's?"

"Zebra, what's your name?"

"Zero, what's your favorite food?"

"Taco!! What's yours?" He chuckle for a little before answering.

"Stake, nice and tender stake. Mmmhhh," I laughed at him basically having a foodgazum. "My god, I could go for some now. But I have to wait to go hunting and getting it ready. Would you like some stake some time soon?" I could totally have some now too, if I didn't just finish my soup.

"Yeah, sounds nice. Why are you being so nice to me?" He leaned back but was quick to reply.

"I know it seems like I'm not nice. Especially when I had to..... do... that," He gestured to my body, "which I am really sorry about. It's just hard to understand, and I'm planning something so I will never, EVER, do that to you again." He leaned forward and sounded completely sincere, "I don't have much and I would like to help you. I have been watching you ever since your mom and dad left. I was hopping they would come back, but... when that much time whent by I decided to take you in." I looked at him wide eyed. My mind just stopped and there was a silence. I took this time to let it all set in. I felt like I could trust him, but I wasn't sure if I should. "I'm sorry for kinda ruining this moment but I just have to say it whall I still remembered it... you need to wash the dishes before I make the stake. I'll go hunting tomorrow and I have to hang it up. Since its around autumn it'll only really take over night to b lead out, but I'll hang it for a whole day just to be sure. Soo, you only have to wash the dishes 2 days from now. Ok?"

"Yeah. Ok. I can totally do that... but can I get a big piece?" He sat back once again getting comfortable.

"Sweetie, we'll have all the best meat we can have!! But I have a question first. Venison or beef?"

(A/N:   I wanna know what you guys say, Venison [deer] or beef [you should fucking know what beef is bro]? Comment plzz... and if not, I'll just ask my fam. Or bff.. either or. Have a Wonderfully beautiful day!!! ^-^)