Love Come & Go (Urban)

Chapter 24

* Tasha*

He just proposed to me. I can't believe this. I really don't think I can do it. He broke me. I was heartbroken forever, and i still am. You cannot witness something that traumatizing and not be in shock. What the fuck do I say ? Yes ? No? I try to take in consideration my son, and the fact that he deserves to have a home with a family, something I didn't have. But it just isn't that easy.

"Natasha please say something" Jermaine pleaded up at me with glossy eyes. Please don't cry. Because lord knows if he cries I'll start balling.

I shook me head slightly signaling my answer. He sighed a breath of relief and slid the huge 8.4 karat ring on my finger. It was beautiful. Say what you want .. Call me stupid. I don't care. Everyone deserves a second chance. Yes what he did was horrible, but he's the father of my child, my lover, my everything.

you don't know him like I do. He really isn't a bad person, he just fucked up. You have to go thru hell to get to the good. Love isn't always easy, but if you can prosper and rise above thru anything it's meant to be. When i first laid eyes on him my heart flickered, it still does to this day. I am wounded and I need to get over his dishonesty and betrayal , but he can help me thru that.

Dont get me wrong tho, I'm not as dumb and blind as I was before. Best believe Ill have his fucking balls in a wrench ready to be squeezed next time he fuck up with me. I'm not the same naive little girl I was. I've matured and gotten wiser. I guess I can thank Jermaine, my mother and son for that.

Y'all are probably thinking how I can forgive Jermaine and not my mother, they both just as wrong. I haven't forgiven him, just pushed it in the back of my heart. I cannot dwell on the past forever, I'll have to deal with it one day.

Jermaine stood and embraced me in a warm hug.

"Natasha baby" he began looking me deep in my eyes, past all the hurt and anger he put me thru. "I promise you I'm going to do right by you and my son. I don't ever wanna lose you again, you and my family mean the world to me. I don't know what id do without you" he spoke truthfully. Looking in his eyes I can see the honesty in them and sympathy. a single tear fell from my eye and he kissed it away from my cheek.

"Let's get out of here" he spoke huskily looking down at me Before placing a wet, passionate kiss on me. I nodded in agreement. He dropped $465 on the table covering our bill and leaving a very generous tip. He held my hand as we walked through the rest of the restaurant to the limo out front. we walked into here barely talking, and now we're engaged. Wow I'm engaged. I smiled just thinking about It.

Once in the limo, I looked up feeling an intense stare on me.

"What" I blushed

"What you thinking about baby?"

"Jermaine are you really serious about this ? My heart cannot take anymore ache than it already has. "

"Natasha I promise you with everything in me i am absolutely serious about this. Yes I know you don't trust me, and I respect that. I wouldn't trust me either. I don't even think I'm worthy of being with you honestly. I am ready for this babe, I want you to know that it will take me some time but if you willing to Stand by me while I'm changing it'll be worth it baby. You and Josiah taught me what it is to love again after I lost my parents. We've been through too much for it all to end .."

My lip quivered nodding my head in comprehension.

"I just really needed to hear that Jermaine, because I've given up so much to be with you and try to make this family work and I just don't wanna look stupid again. I'm doing this with you Jermaine. Just don't let me down" I said shakily. through my throat tightening and tears running. I know I looked a hot mess with my mascara streaking onto my blush.