For Money or Her

Say Goodbye

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard, but we gotta do it
It's kind of killing me
Cause there's never a right time
A right time to say goodbye ------------ Chris Brown  

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Leianne***

Rick rested his head on my shoulder. I've never seen him so torn in my life. The echos of people crying bothered me, it made me think, that that could have been Rick, Leon or even Heartless. 

I wiped a tear as it left my eyes. Looking dead at the 2 coffins in front of us.

"I glad all yall could make it today" Mama G said softly.

Yeah. We decided to have a joint funeral for the guys, and Mama G was the only sane parents all the guys had. It made my heart break watching her stand there break down as she spoke about the first time she met the boys.

"People used to cuss me for doing such a thing, taking the boys in as my own since I already had my own" She spoke. "After I lost my daughters Alexis and Angel and my husband, I wanted other children to cherish, I remember Alexis bringing Ricardo home, talking about some guys are at the basketball court and that's where they lived, my heart ached at the thought, I told them to bring they asses here and that's when I met Christopher and Hakeem, they were so young, telling me the run away from their foster care, I knew what I had to do, I adopted them babies, and raised them as my own, I had four boys....and now I've only got 2" She said wiping her eyes. "I will never forget the day they came into my lives and I promise the person that did this will pay"

Everyone mumbled agreeing with her.

"You okay?" I asked Tasha as she held Heartless.

She nodded.

"But he's not"

She got up allowing us to be alone. I watched as she walked off to where Rick and Mama G and a couple of other people were. Heartless sat there starring at nothing in particular as his tears rolled down his face. He looked so vulnerable.

"Come" I said softly reaching out to him.

He looked at me blankly then looked at my hand taking it. I took him up to his room since we decided to have the after party at Mama G's. I sat him on the bed then locked the door. He just sat there spacing out as I wiped under his eyes.

"Let it out, its okay..."

He just blinked licking over his bottom lip swiftly.

"Everything I touch dies..."

I felt my heart ache at each word that left his mouth.

"My sisters died, my bros died, our baby died...who's next huh? I can't afford for no one else to get hurt"

I sat on his lap allowing him to lay his head on my chest.

"I was 10 and she was only 6" He chocked.

I ran my fingers through his hair as he spoke.

"She was such a big baby when it came to her big brother, we watched as our dad played basketball with his friends, yeah his ass was old but still loved his B ball, I envied my dad I always promised when I got older I would be just like him, all the kids around the block respected him...he was my hero"

I kissed his forehead noticing his voice begin to break again.

"This one day...where I could have done something, I could have done something Leianne, I watched as it all unfolded in slow motion, I watched as my dad and his boys pulled out their guns, I watched as my little sister got knocked off her bike with a bullet to her chest, as my dad ran over and knocked me down using his body as a sheild I knew it was over...all of it, I watched my sister die and made my dad take his life saving mine"

By now tears were rolling down my face.

"I remember the car driving off and my mother running out the house towards us, she was currently 8 months pregnant with my other little sister, man..." He let out a small breathe. "I wanted my mother to be happy again man, I really did, on my 13th birthday I told her in remembrance she could change my name, since I was the only one still living I wanted her to be happy, so yea my full name Alexis Angel Wright, named after 3 people that didn't even get to live their lives like I'm doing today"

"Alexis..." I said softly.

He lifted his head off my chest and looked deep in my eyes.

"Now I've lost 2 brothers, you, Rick, Lz, Tasha and Mama G is all I got left man, if I lost any of you I've completely lost the race, that's why I need your right now, I'm done with the bull shit and fuckeries, its not going to be easy but I need you to have my back Leianne"

I let out a small breathe.

"My mum cheated on my dad when I was 9 and Leon was 11, My dad left without even looking back, I was always a mummy's girl so Leon decided to leave with him while I stayed with her, that had to be one of the worst day's of my life, I lost my brother, dad and mum all at once, weeks passed and my mum became addicted, I tried to talk he out of it but she had men around every other day dosing her up and sleeping with her, luckily none of them touched me...but she did...you see this" I said lifting up my dress showing him the scar on my stomach. "She stabbed me for trying to contact my dad and Leon and this scar..." I said showing him my inner thigh. "Is from her using one of her used needles to slice my leg open, I knew If I stayed there I was a goner,, I had no idea where my dad lived so I ran...ran until my feet stumbled across a familiar neighborhood"

He rubbed my back.

"I banged on the door, and from then I was joint to the hip by Rick, if I ever lost him I would loose myself and now I've lost 2 guys I called my brothers I've only got Rick, you, Tasha and Mama G left, I can't loose none of you....please"

He leaned forward pecking my lips.

"I'm not gonna leave you baby I promise"

I laid my head on his shoulder smiling softly.

"And I'm never gonna leave you"

Tbc...

Yup hella sad...gonna get ruined with some drama tho (: