A Piece of Me

The Wonder Years

Years and years of circling
I'm forever yours
Don't disappoint me
Or else it'll have been for nothing
You care for me
But I don't care for myself
I love you
But I don't know how to love myself
You make a hard tragedy seem like a common mistake
You work magic for me
And you in return get my love
The love and care I felt for you when you defended me
I defended you
But you don't know that
A year later you were called a douche by a friend
He was wrong
You're not that
You're the embodiment of good
But you're also the embodiment of self-deprivation
You need me
I need you
We go together and always have
Maybe you know that
But why you don't admit to yourself I don't know
I think the world of you
Always have for these 3.5 years
From liking you, to never knowing you, to being disappointed by you
From seeing hope with you to getting applause from you to knowing you
I find myself stuck
I am stuck because I love you and I'm terrified to say it out loud
Only because the last time I did I thought I meant it but I was confused about who I was loving
Poetry is no secret to me as it isn't to you
I figured out the mystery from these three years
It was always you
As I hate to admit that
It's true
You mean everything to me
Tell me the same
The truth
Save me
Save me from my disappointment
I cannot handle being disappointed by you again
Because what I feel is too strong
Strong enough to lift a car off a child
And strong enough to collapse at the hand of my faint of heart
Because you were scared
Because you didn't even know
A friend told me once that your body tells you how you feel about someone before your mind even knows
She was right
I felt safe next to you in that attendance line
Especially since the day you had stood up for me
Your body tells me what you feel
Hopefully, it told you how you feel
Because if I tell you I'll be declared insane
For reverting back to you
And leaving what was known to be common sense
When it came to you that was never real for me
You were real for me
That was always enough
You were always enough
Tell me
Am I enough for you
I know that I am
If not more
So tell me
Who am I to you
After all this time
All these years
Because, you, my friend, my love
Are my source of life these days
That's what's wonderful
About all this time
That it was worth it
You were worth it
You are worth it.