Last chance to make it(book 3-last book)(completed)

chapter 10

De'kay

"Regina I said stop it please I'm trying to work here!" I snapped, shes been acting really out of place this past months. I don't know what her problem is, she huffed" go play or something or better yet go sleep please Gina " I begged, Quincy went out with Q and the boys are with their father, Gina didn't wanna go with Q for some reason I don't know, it's a Saturday and I'm busy handling my files here putting them in order butcher I can't seem to get them in order coz of Gina, Mika is 6 months pregnant now going on 7, she doesn't wanna know the gender of the baby I don't know why. Jas really did marry Bic or who ever his name is, his not bad looking but his old for my liking 20 years difference is bad and my mom is just not with it but she doesn't wanna push Jas away again...as for my sister Jay she told me she's thinking of moving down here again so that King yeah I know his name...King gotta get involved with his cousins see my point I don't know how she's gon handle Terell being with Morgan and stuff, speaking of Morgan hell the day I see Brendan is the day on gon go to Jail for killing his ass, I still don't wanna believe that Lay been in an abusive relationship and never bothered to confine in me...I sighed then looked at my cry baby girl " tell me what's wrong baby? I'm trying to work here and you disturbing me " I pleaded " you never spend time with me, no one wants to spend time with me, everybody hates me...you don't love me no more " she cried -screaming I gasped " come here bab-"." NO! ....everyone is mean to me, I don't want to live anymore I hate you!" well that took me by surprise, she ran off upstairs making me run after her, im trying not to breakdown right now, why would she think that?." Gina baby open this door please let mommy talk to you " I pleaded I'm fighting back my tears at this point coz I can hear her crying on the other side I sighed then decided to go call Q

***phone convo***

Q : hey wh-

Me: please come back home, Gina is acting up again (sniffing) I really don't know why she's feeling like this please come back

Q : what happened?

Me: she's (sigh), she locked herself in her room right now, she says everyone hates her and that everyone is being mean to her I'm starting to think I'm neglecting my own child, Q I don't want her feeling like she's not wanted like I grew up thinking...it's not the best feeling ever (crying)

Q : okay okay im on my way back keep calm and keep trying to talk to her

Me : (sniffing) okay i'll keep trying just get here quick.

***end of phone convo ****

I sighed heavily then went back to talk to her by her door, sadly she's still crying " Gina baby please open this door please you breaking my heart baby " I cried, I was beginning to give up trying to get her to open the door coz I'm getting weaker hearing her cry like that, she finally opened up I did what my motherly instinct told me to do to just hug her tightly, it's not hidden that Regina is like me everywhere inside and out...she has her own insecurities I try to not let her dwell too much on them so that she don't turn out like me big and feel ugly " I'm so sorry baby, I didn't know you felt like this...but why do you feel like I don't love you no more?"i asked once she calmed down,she laid her head on my shoulder " I just feel like everyone cares more about all the boys except for me,im always alone, Kam and Rein get to go out more with Quincy than with me, they don't like me..they always mean to me, when I talk to you, you shout at me then dad never talk to me besides ask about my school work it sucks mommy I want to be loved too.   but you hate me" she whined more like a frustrated whining that is but I understand how she feels coz I been in that situation before " babay hear mommy out okay, I love you with every inch of me okay, daddy loves you too...the boys don't spend time with you more because you snap at them and they feel like you just want your space okay? don't say we don't love you no more because we all do alright? " I questioned, she nodded" I'm sorry for shouting at you baby - are you okay now?" I asked, she nodded" I love you now try sleeping on me even though you heavy on me" I joked, she laughed " I love you too" I kissed her cheek then laid my head on her head " my beautiful baby - we love you" I cooed I love all my kids now that Gina acted out I'm starting to think maybe the twins and Quincy have their own little theory too I better talk to all of them one by one