The only reason (luke hemmings fanfic)(trigger warning)

Chapter 2

I wake to the beeping of my alarm and drag myself out of bed, i put concealer under my eyes to hide the obvious fact that i had cried myself to sleep the night before. i put on a clean hoodie and jeans, a fake smile and go downstairs for breakfast, or should i say to watch my brother ashton eat breakfast while i drink some water.

"hey!" he says as i reach the bottom of the stairs. He's always so chirpy in the mornings, well all the time really. it gets on my nerves but i can't ask him to be gloomy all the time just because i am.

"hi" i call back, trying, and failing to put some enthusiasm into my voice.

i sit at the breakfast bar and sip my water, watching him stuff down 3 slices of toast with Vegemite smothered on it. how come he can eat like that every morning and not turn into something that resembles a balloon like me?

"you...not eating?" he asks looking from me, to the small glass of water.

i have my reply rehearsed "yeah but not here, i have a protein bar in my bag, im eating at school to save time"

"oh. hey, is it okay if i drive Luke to school with us? his mom is working early so he doesn't have a ride."

ugh, the one part of the day where i normally have peace and quiet, is going to be taken over by Luke hemmings. fml.

"it won't make a difference even if i say no will it?" i groan.

"not-" ashton is cut off by Luke walking into the kitchen.

"sorry, i let myself in" he messes up my hair on his way past me and i shoot him a death stare while he just laughs.

"say no to what B?" he questions like he doesn't already know the answer.

"i have a full name you know! not just "b"!" i sigh. he only calls me that to piss me off.

"yeah but....i think i prefer b" he replies cockily.

"can we just go ashton?" i beg, the sooner we leave, the sooner we get to school and the sooner im (kind of) away from Luke.

we climb into the car and drive in silence to hell, i mean school.

"bye, b!" Luke calls as i walk to my class.

" whatever!" i call back, not bothering to look at him.

ugh he annoys me! I'm not sure what it is about him, he just really gets on my nerves.

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i plop down into a seat next to my best (and only) friend, grace. she's the only one who knows anything about my......issue.

I shoot her a small smile, "hey"

"hey" she replies looking at the long sleeves of my hoodie, it is summer so she can easily guess why im wearing it. she shoots me a questioning look to confirm her suspicions and i nod slightly. staring at the floor, ashamed.

without a word she pulls me into a hug and whispers "its okay" in my ear.

"it isn't though is it?" i reply, tears threatening to spill down my cheeks. "if it were okay i would be wearing a pretty tank top today, not a hoodie."

"well, its going to be okay" she says, looking me dead in the eye.

"thanks," i reply, but deep down i know she's wrong.

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A/N

Short chapter, sorry!! idk what to say about this chapter so ummmmm.....bai! votes and comments are always appreciated!!!