There's so much to do
Places to be
I can't seem to slow down
There's not enough hours in the day
I hope she treasures you
It looks like she does
I walked behind y'all
She held onto your arm as we walked in the rain
I trailed on behind trying not to be seen
I didn't want you to see the pain I was trying to hide
She got you
And she's holding on tight
Y'all acted like I wasn't there
But you didn't leave me in the rain
You didn't shut the door in my face
You held it open for me and let me get in front of you
I wanted to say thank you but the words wouldn't come out
I was too scared
I was afraid something might come out instead
So I kept my head low and just walked past you
I say I'm in love with you but I can't even look at you
I'm the weakest person I know
I try to take charge and lead them
But I don't even believe in myself
I can't trust myself
I know myself too well
How am I supposed to put my trust in them
I don't know them
They may have other motives
Sometimes I just want to quit
I look at her and him and become sick with them
How can they be that perfect
She tells me everything and they're perfect
I should be happy for her but they make me sad
I want that
I want to have you
And be completely open with you
About everything
I want to be able to love you
They make me sad because I know I'll never be like that
Not for a long time
I don't want to be like that with anyone else besides you
And she's got you wrapped around her finger
And you can't get out
Why would you leave her if I confessed
You wouldn't
And that's why I stay silent
No one would leave her for me
I wonder if you tell her you love her
I might fall over dead if I heard you say it
You would break my heart completely
I don't want to get attached to anyone
I don't want to lead anyone on
How can I be in his arms when I want to be in yours
When I look into his eyes I see yours
You're a curse I never want reversed
You're a disease and I don't want the cure
You're all I've ever wanted and everything I've tried to avoid
Just please
Save me
Spare me and my rugged heart
Don't tell her something that you don't mean
