Stolen Hearts (Kidnapped by Ashley Purdy)

(31) Reaccoring Dreams

* Chelseas P.O.V *

I winced as my doctor changed my bandages and whimpered as he changed the IV in my arm. I've been in this place for months apparently and will be in it for many more according to him. I was meant to be let out ealier but they found complications which sucks. At first - I couldn't stand him anywhere near me but eventually got used to him. He just wants to make me better - That's his job.

I don't know where Andy or anyone is. I miss them so much.. I ask questions but never get answers. The only thing they tell me is that I'm "Safe" now. I may be safe in the daytime but not at night. That's when Ashley comes to me in my dreams. I can't explain it to my psychiatrist even though I'm meant to tell her everything.

I just can't. I hate remembering what happened and just don't want to bring it up. When i keep it to myself I can pretend it's just a bad dream. I just wanna get out of here and go home. I don't wanna tell her either cause she will keep me here longer. If i pretend I'm okay- I'll be let out. Anyways - I don't want to get the other guys in trouble cause they helped me get away from Ashley - Especially Andy. He would get in huge trouble since he didn't notify to cops when i was first taken along with piles of other things. They wouldn't care that he has saved my life. They would only care about the negatives.

After Dr. Johnson was done - He smiled and patted me. He knows I hate it here and tries to make it better for me. He left the room and I reached over to the bedside table and picked up my journal and started to write. I wrote about my dream last night. I wrote:

Dear diary

The dream keeps reaccoring but with diffrent settings. The night before Ashley pulled me off the edge of a building so we could be together forever but last night we were back in those woods. Fire was all around us and Ashley was prancing around screaming "Forever Chelsea Forever" he eventually caught on fire and started to burn. The scent of burning flesh was repulsing and I begun to gag and cry. He continued to burn but kept on prancing as his skin melted off his face and there was nothing left except two black holes where his eyes were and bone along with organs. His screams intensified and he crashed into me and we fell into this black hole and continued to fall as his screams continued too and he grabbed me and connected our mouths together an-

My door opened and I slammed my journal shut and put it under my pillow. My nurse walked in and gestured to me to get up. I was allowed now to walk around the hospital and join the other patients in dinner hall. The other girls had their parents and friends with them since it was also visiting hours. I'm not allowed to see my parents or my friends yet since it will be "unsettling" for me. I don't agree with it at all. I wish I could see my dad and my friends. I think of Maxx alot and just hope that he's happy. I'll get if he moved on but i would still be sad.

Nurse Jackson sat with me and another girl sat with us. Her name is Amy and she suffers from self harm and suicidal thoughts. Her left arm was bandaged up but I saw the deep,angry cuts on her right arm and shivered. I never understood how someone could do that before but now I do. Amy was really nice and chatty. She also has severe depression which I relate too. I chatted with her for a while and she turns out to be really funny and kind. That's the scary thing though -  You never know what people go through.

I forced down as much food as possible and made my way back to my room and started to cry. I just want to leave and want to be free..