SHE.

146 Days before Graduation

Another chapter in the same day:)

xoxo, 

Imnotafiveyearold

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Becca,

Trust is a scary thing. You put your belief in someone or something hoping whatever happens you'll be fine. People often associate the word trust with other people like in a relationship. But what about trust within yourself? It's not something that's commonly thought of but it's so crucial within a person's life. If you can't trust yourself, how will you ever get past doing something. You gotta trust your beliefs and your actions no matter what comes your way.

I remember how strong willed you were. You always stood by your words and never let anything hinder your decision. Your determination and stubbornness was admirable Becs but you trusted people too easily. You always looked at the good in people and sometimes that hurt you more than you wanted it to. Then slowly you began to lose hope and trust in people. And now you're gone.

I don't know how much I trust myself or anyone else. I am always trying to make the best decision and make choices that will keep everyone happy. However, it feels like I can't do that anymore. I feel like people are gonna be unhappy no matter what. So I am trying to make decisions that make me happy and I am trying to trust my choices. I don't know how far that will take me and if it will do me any good. I gotta go. I hope you're well. If you have time, please reply back. It would mean the world and more to me.

Love,

Aiden

146 Days before Graduation

All I could think of was Summer. The way her lips felt when they touched mine. That fateful night was something I could never forget. Summer on the other hand had not mentioned a word about it. It had been six days and Summer could not be anymore indifferent about it.

"What do you think the answer to number five is?" Summer turns around to ask me. We were in history class right now and Mrs.Edwards was making us do bookwork—more like busy work.

"I'm still stuck on four, you know the answer?" I wonder.

"Yea, just write that Babylon is the largest and most important city in Mesopotamia. It achieved particular eminence as the capital of the Amorite king Hammurabi in the eighteenth century B.C.E. and the Neo-Babylonian king Nebuchadnezzar in the sixth century." She explains. The thing about Summer is she was incredibly smart, but she wasn't aware of it.

"What?" I say, dumbfounded.

She laughs, that stupid melodious laugh of hers, "Let me just write it real quick, hand over the paper before she kills us." I hand her my paper, but not before looking up to see if Mrs.Edwards is looking. She quickly scribbles down the answer and discretely hands me the paper.

"Thanks Summertime Sadness." She glares at me. She hates that nickname.

"Mr.Parker do you want to share what you and Ms.Evans are giggling about?" Mrs.Edwards quipped.

"No, sorry ma'am we will get back to our work." Summer tells her as her cheeks become a rosy pink.

"Is your name Mr.Parker?" Mrs.Edwards bellows. Summer looks like she would like to be swallowed up by the ground right now.

"She was just answering your question. You even mentioned her name." I blurt out, suddenly feeling defensive.

"Mr.Parker, you know disrupting a class is grounds for detention, I would hate to see your record tarnished and soccer chances." She threatens, nostrils flaring. I thought Mr. Grimmond was evil, but she takes the cake. She pissed off the wrong person.