Who's It Gonna Be

Not Worth It

I don't know how long I sat there crying, but it felt like ages. I told F/N everything that happened, and she felt really bad. She kept apologizing, saying it was her fault because she made me confess. At first I was mad at her, but I realized that she was only trying to help me. She sat with me, holding me, saying everything would be fine while all my pain and sadness poured from my eyes. I realised how lucky I am to have such a good friend. Eventually I stopped and decided to leave. It was late and we were both tired. Plus I needed to get my mind off of Mark.

I woke up with my feeling awful. I had barely slept, and when I did, I had nightmares that woke me back up. I got up and looked in the mirror. You could tell I had been crying a lol because my eyes were puffy and red. I heard the doorbell so I dragged my feet to the door, tiredly opening it. I was expecting F/N, but to my surprise it was Jinyoung.
"Hey Y/N do you wanna- wait whats wrong. Have you been crying? Did someone hurt you? I swear to god I will kill whoever did this!" Questions kept flowing from his lips, as well as plenty of death threats. I mentally cursed myself for letting him see me like this.
"I'm fine Park-gae" I forced a smile and tried to act cute to try and avoid explaining, but he wasn't buying it.
"Don't lie to me. Just tell me what really happened. You know you can trust me, right?" I sighed and nodded my head. Of course he was right. He always is.
"Come in." I said and walked to the living room to sit down. He followed after closing the door behind him and sat next to me. I told him everything from my crush on Mark to the part where he rejected me. At first he looked furious and ready to go find Mark so he could kick his ass. Tears started to form at the corners of my eyes from replaying the events in my head. Jinyoung noticed and hugged me. I felt warm and safe in his arms. I let a tear slip, frustrated by all the tears I've let fall for that jerk. All of the sudden Jinyoung grabbed the sides of my face and gently yet forcefully made me look him in the eyes. My face felt hot where his hands made contact with my skin and my heart skipped.
"Look at me," he said. "Please don't cry anymore. It hurts me to see you in so much pain. You don't deserve it, and he doesn't deserve your tears. Now promise me you won't cry anymore and that you'll try to be happy." I gulped and nodded my head.
"I promise." He smiled sweetly down at me, giving me a warm and fuzzy feeling inside, and I smiled back. How did I get so lucky as to have so many good friends in my life. We sat there for a couple of minutes, him hugging me and rubbing my arm in such a soothing way. I was starting to slowly drift off when Jinyoung suddenly spoke.
"We should go do something. To take your mind off of things and enjoy yourself. I'll take you wherever you want to go." I looked up at him and grinned.