I banged on her door and yelled. I hate to have to work at your 21. I hate you, i hate your smell, i hate your eyes, i hate every thing about you. You cause me pain Janet. Lesbians don't work?
"Forgive me Mama, please am sorry mom. Mom please stop, your words are hurting. Mom i love you"
She held me tight and cried badly as she continue to beg. Get away from me now! I pulled from her grib and walked out of the house.
(Jay's pov)
Mom don't walk away from me please. I pleaded, but she paid no attention. No! i won't let her walk away not today.
I ran after her, she was about getting into a taxi. I grab her from behind, mom talk to me please. Who am i? Who is my dad? Who is my mom? How can a mother hate her own child as much as you do mom? Who am i?
"Get away from me, are you outta yo mind?"
"Mom we have to get back in, we need to talk. Who am i to you?"
"I wish i had aborted you Janet. My friends begged me to, but i guess i was just a little bitch who didn't take caution when it came to love. You disgust me Janet"
For the first time in my life i thought about committing suicide. I can't take it any longer, my legs are weakening. I ran back to my room, screamed so fucking loud. Why me? Why mom?
I start to feel hoarseness in my voice.
10MINS LATER
"Open up Jay!" Please open the door. What's going on? Are you okay? Am gonna call 911 if you don't let me in now."
I could hear Mrs Smith call out.
"Go away ma'am am good"
"Jay what's going on?"
"Nothing am good. Please go away."
"Alright be fine,and come see me as soon as you're good okay? and i want you to know I've loved you and i will always do. Don't let her words get to you my dear."
Did she just say she loves me? No one has said that to me in many years. I stepped down from the stool. I looked at the rope in my hands, really? I wanted to die? Who will be with chris then? Lols. I threw the rope back into my wardrobe. Wow! Life feels good. I chuckle and grab my towel, it's time for a cool bath.
I rush into the bathroom and turn on the radio set.
(Ooou by young Ma is playing)
"My brother told me fuck em get that money sis! You just keep on grindin' on your hungry shit Ignore the hate Ignore the fake Ignore the funny shit 'Cause if a nigga violate We got a hunit clips (grrrrrrah!) and we go zero to a hundred quick (Ooouuu)
Oooooouuuu.....i sing along with so much relief. Feeling better now? I ask myself while staring at the mirror.
Gosh am cute.. 😂😂😂
I tiptoe into my room. Shit! I didn't sweep here today. Stepping on sand after bath is disgusting. I open my wardrobe, oh there you are, it's been a while. I unhang one of the hoodies prince gave to me on my 20th birthday.
Why do i look so good? Lmao. I should take a selfie before stepping out to see chris.
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