notes {k.th p.jm}

note #9

"Drown me in your water
let your water
wash over me."
- Jack Garratt, Water

Here I am again.

Looking st you from behind.

The stuff I do makes me hate myself even more than I already do.

Last night, I painted with silver, only to yet again see it turn a dark shade of red.

If you only knew, Jimin.

Not that you care anyways right?

I should have known better.

I'm so repulsed by myself.

Disgusted.

That's what I am, right?

In your eyes I'm disgusting.

Yet, I don't know how to fix it.

I wish I wasn't a failure.

I really wish I wasn't.

My mom says it too.

She also calls me a failure.

You're hurting me.

I know that you do it purposely.

You never fail to both light up and darken my days.

The highlights are when you acknowledge me.

The downturns are when you beat me.

Jimin, I'm begging you.

Set me free.