Silence

Pt. 2

"Please! I don't want to die! Please, I beg of you!"

"You are not getting away with this kid... I said its either you or her and you told me you wanted to instead of her."

"But I-"

"But what kid? You really messed up this time. Admit it."

"Brother, please! Please don't hurt me."

"You are adopted by my parents, that doesn't mean that you are my brother! You screwed with me once and now you've just annoyed me more. So I'll ask you again, you or your animal of a girlfriend?"

"I'm not letting anyone get hurt because of me."

"Good, now I can get this over with." 

"Brother! Please!"

"Kid, how dumb are you?"

"I'm not dumb! I'm certainly smarter than you!"

"Don't retort at me! You are younger than me and I'm smarter than you."

"Why do i have to listen to you anyway? You just told me you are not my brother so I have no reason to be here."

"You are so stupid."

This guy that I call my brother pinned me to the wall using one of his arms against my neck. 

I saw his free hand clench into a fist and rise up towards my face.

I closed my eyes...

*Awake*

I shot up from my bed, startling my mama.

I could feel my heart beating out of my chest.

"Son, are you okay?" Mama asked so very gently.

I felt out of breath so I just gave her a sympathetic look.

She grabbed my hand but as soon as I felt her touch, I rapidly pulled my hand to myself.

"What is wrong with me?" I thought to myself.

"Son, are you sure you are okay?" Mama asked with a concerning look.

I sat confused. Why am I like this to Mama?

Her concern grew as I could see tears in her eyes. 

"eh-" I tried to talk but I couldn't.

Nothing. I tried to talk but I physically couldn't.

I looked at Mama as I panicked slightly. 

This isn't normal. What is happening to me?

"Son?" Mama said with tears in her eyes.

I didn't say anything. I couldn't  say anything. 

All I can do is look at her with my pitiful face.

Why is my silence so hurtful and potent?