I Need You

I Need You- Chapter 8

Chapter 8

I woke up to the sunlight in my eyes and the wonderful smell of food being cooked in the kitchen. Dennis wasn't there, which told me that he was the one in the kitchen. At least, that was what I was hoping. I had never seen Johnny cook for himself and I doubted that he would start now. Besides, I felt peaceful and I knew that I wouldn't if he was there. I knew that there was a huge amount of anger within Johnny now. It had always been there but I hadn't really noticed it before. I didn't want to see it I supposed and I knew that there were just too many things that I hadn't dealt with. Dennis was different, from Johnny and every other man I had ever met. I knew now that I loved him, that there was something more between us than just lust. I knew that he felt it too, I could tell by the way he had looked at me. I just hoped that things were not complicated now. There was no need for them to be honestly. We are usually the ones that make things complicated.

I didn't want to make it complicated between us. I didn't want to feel the things that I was feeling in some ways. I was finally okay, finally to the point where I wanted exhausted. I felt pretty great, though I definitely knew that I had spent time with him. I could feel it every time I moved and it brought a small smile to my face. Last night had been amazing, I just hoped that he felt the same way. I was pretty sure that he did, just judging by the warmth and positive energy that was around me. He was cooking breakfast and it smelled wonderful. I wasn't really that much of a cook, though I could hold my own I supposed. I could tell that he was a much better cook than I was. I figured that maybe he had to be, maybe that was a part of his life before me. I didn't know but I was curious. I wasn't sure that he would talk to me about those things. There were things in the past that were painful, I could tell that but I could also tell that he had accepted them for what they were and had moved on. I understood what that could be like with my own past. At the same point in time I didn't blame him.

He was strong and he didn't let the past break him. I didn't blame him. Actually I was proud of him really. I knew that he was a lot stronger than I was in some ways. At the same point in time I knew that I was strong myself. There were things coming for me but I could handle that. I didn't want to hurt him but I would do it if I had to. I might not have any other choice in the matter. If I had to hurt him it would be his own fault. I wasn't willing to be the victim and I wasn't going to be his. He had another thing coming if he thought that he could break me. I wasn't that weak, I wasn't that much of a Princess as Dennis had called me in his anger. I understood why he said that to a degree. I also understood that there were things about him that he didn't want to share. I hoped that he would though because I wanted to know him and everything about him. I was willing to share myself with him and hoped that he would do the same with me.

"Good morning beautiful" He said coming into the room with a steaming plate of eggs.

It smelled wonderful and in that moment I was actually happy for the way that things had happened. Did I like the fact that my ex was coming to kill me, no but I was happy that Dennis was there. I had been drawn to him from the very beginning and now I was definitely head over heels. I had never felt like this with anyone and it was with him that I began to understand why it hadn't worked with anyone else. He was the one, the one I had been searching for. He was the missing piece of my life and I wasn't sure that I could walk away from him. I was consumed by him but it wasn't really scary for me. I felt at peace for the very first time in my life. There was no pretending with this for me, it was all real. It was the most wonderful feeling in the world, the warmth that spread through me while being with him. I didn't understand everything but at the same point in time I didn't feel that I needed to. I was there with him and it felt good. I didn't care about anything but him and I.