I Need You

I Need You- Chapter 2

Chapter 2

I sighed contently as the hot water rushed over my skin. Steam filled the small bathroom as I literally tried to pull the heat into myself. The water was hot, much hotter than most people could stand but I wasn't most people. I was still cold from the encounter in the other room and was still shaking slightly. There was something about that man that froze me to the core. It had taken everything in me to turn and walk away. He held me there, frozen in place. Whether it was fear or something else holding me there I wasn't really sure. I was unnerved by him and slightly disturbed by my reaction to him. He was a monster, I had glanced at the air around him and saw that. Still, I had been intrigued by him.

I knew that I shouldn't have been, especially with everything that I was going through at the moment but that didn't mean I wasn't. I never had been good at this whole thing and the worse a guy was the more I was drawn to him. That was my nature but this was a little bit too much.

"I'm not drawn to him" I said out loud.

It wasn't so much that I expected an answer as it was that I needed to hear my own voice. It was part of my problem, I liked the sound of my own voice too much. It was something that had gotten me in over my head many times. I also knew that it was part of what made me such a good villain. We monologued, even if we didn't mean to. Mina, she wasn't really big on that. She was more about the fight than anything else which was how she had wound up working for Jasper. He needed someone to protect him and she filled that role perfectly. They were truly perfect for each other, complimenting each other in all of the ways that mattered. The thing was that they couldn't really see it. I wasn't going to point it out because that wasn't really my place. Besides, neither one of them were ready to hear it yet. They were both happy with the way that things were.

Neither of them wanted to deal with what was between them and honestly I was not really sure that they would deal with it any time soon.

"Not my place" I reminded myself with a sigh.

I closed my eyes, shutting everything out but the feel of the hot water pounding against my skin. It was hot, alive with an energy all of its own. I knew that I needed this because I felt cold all the way through. My muscles ached all over, something that the water was helping with. I was still tense, something I was working on. To the credit of the new guy, I wasn't thinking about the old guy. He was totally gone from my mind, something that I was happy about to a degree. There were things that I was trying not to think about and he was definitely one of them. His piercing eyes, his soul reading stare were all that I could think about. I couldn't think about anything else but then again who could blame me.

"Mina" I answered myself.

Seriously, I was answering myself now? This was not good, not at all. I wasn't sure what was coming my way but I wasn't sure that things were going to stay that way. I didn't really think things were that simple. I didn't really know anything about him but he was my every thought right now, something that I didn't really like. I couldn't think about anything but him, in spite of the fact that I was trying to think of other things. Why did all my thoughts come rushing back to him? I honestly wasn't sure and I really didn't like it. I didn't like the fact that things were trapped in my mind. There weren't too many people who could make me get like this but he somehow had. I wasn't really sure how he had done it but he had done it all the same. There was just something about him that was drawing me in. I shook my head, as if I could clear the thoughts away.

I wished that I could but I couldn't regardless of how I felt. I needed time to heal, not being drawn to someone as dark as he was. There was a darkness in him that spoke to me and I honestly wasn't sure that I liked it. There was just too much at stake for me and I didn't even really understand what was happening. I didn't understand what it was about him that was drawing me in but there was something there. There was a lot there actually but I kept trying to push those thoughts away. I needed to get myself under control, something that wasn't the easiest thing to do with everything that I had been through. I knew that once I got out of there I would have to talk to her about what happened.