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selfish

I'm sick of this! She's always away, with them! All she wants to talk about is her girlfriend. I'm always lonely because of her. she was supposed to be the one person I could trust to always be there. I smile at them to make sure They stay happy and they take advantage over me. I care so much about the people around me that I forget how to care about myself. She is the opposite. She is so focused on herself that she forgets the people around her have feelings. She never cared about other peoples problems. She didn't mind me being alone because I pretended to be fine. I felt so uncomfortable around her toxic words. I felt so uncomfortable around her toxic voice. I felt so uncomfortable around her toxic ideas. so I left. She didn't even care that I was gone! Did three years mean nothing to her?! She always compares me to her ex girlfriend even though I'm a different person. She used to be on the outside so I tried to welcome her in even though everybody hated me being so kind to her. What did she do once she got inside?! She threw me out! She wanted me to feel her pain even tough I was trying to heal her! Why do I even try when I know she hates me? What do I do when I don't know why she hates me?