Blind Desires

In His Eyes Chap.4

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In His Eyes Chap. 4

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Nick and I walked into the café we used to go to when we were dating and took the last booth in the place. It was dim lit and farthest from earshot if anyone wanted to eavesdrop in our conversation. The waiter came over and took our drink order. He asked if we wanted something to eat, and we both shook our heads. We had come here to talk, not have a lively chat. We were quiet when the waiter came over with our drinks.

Nick sat in front of me with his hands around his cup of coffee. Ever so often our eyes would meet and he would smile shyly. In the short month that we had been over, Nick had changed enough to be noticed.

Nick had that dirty blonde hair I loved and those light grey eyes. His body used to be firm and slim, and he never had bags under his eyes; unlike now. Nick looked skinnier but in an unhealthy way. It seemed that he hadn’t had a good night’s sleep in a while. It made me feel guilty that he wasn’t alright due to my leaving. The feeling made my stomach hurt uncomfortably.

“I miss you, Dimitri.” His soft whisper made my chest ache.

I said nothing as I sipped my hot chocolate. I tried to play off the aching in my chest as I sat in front of the man I loved for the past two years or so. I tried to not remember the cute features that I loved about him. Like how when he was mad, he would ball his fists and his lower lip would tremble. Or when he was sad, how he would look anywhere but at me and he would try not to pout, although, it was impossible. I tried to not remember how happy he had made me before I found out about his affair; affairs. How when he would get home from work he would lie on my back and tell me about his day. Or how when we made love he would lay on my chest and kiss my neck before falling asleep whispering that he loved me.

I tried to forget about everything, but truth be told, I couldn’t. I looked up to meet his eyes and smiled a bit.

“I’ve missed you too, Nick.”

Nick exhaled as if he had been holding his breath the entire time and smiled.

The smile turned into a sadden smile as he looked down at his cup and then back at me, “I’m so sorry about what happened, D’. I… I don’t know what to say. I know I messed up, majorly… but I still… I love you, D’.” His eyes sparkled with unshed tears and his lower lip trembled. He was nervous and felt vulnerable; something Nick hated the most.

I smiled, “I know.”

Again, we were quiet as we sipped our drinks. Nick reached over and intertwined our fingers together. I looked down at our hands and smiled a bit. His touch was something my body hadn’t forgotten. It felt safe, but at the same time betrayed.

“Remember when we would come to this café and order the lemon scones? I wonder if they still sale them.”

I nodded, “You loved the red velvet cupcakes and would always get them no matter what time it was.”

Nick laughed and my ears were delighted to hear something they were used to. My heart, on the other hand, didn’t beat fast at the sound of his laughter.

“You would always tell me that I would get sick from eating so many of them.”

I chuckled, “and in the end I was the one who got sick from eating too many blueberry muffins.”