I don't want to feel so empty anymore. I realize that nobody cares and I'm not sure if that hurts more than the fact that my own family has never noticed this. I'm so tired of pretending all the time. I may not be perfect but nobody is. I just don't want to be compared to better people all the time, I know I'm not what you wanted but this is who I am and I need help. Heaven forbid I actually admit it.
