The Fangirl Swirl

10 : Starving

We finish our pizza. Our eyes occasionally meeting and hands brushing against each other. We avoided eye contact as much as possible but whenever I looked at him, he was already staring and whenever he looked at me, he caught me staring.

I get up and take all the leftover to the kitchen and start washing the dishes. Hearing the footsteps coming behind me, I knew exactly who it is. I turn around to look at him and see that he was standing right in front of me looking me in the eyes. The storm that his eyes had before seems like its rushing more wildly now. His hazel eyes have turned a darker shade.

"Ro-Robert? Do you need anything?" I stutter, controlling myself not to jump on him kissing his  plump lips. His cologne is so intoxicating that its making it more and more harder.

"I thought I can help you with the dishes!" He says coming closer than before. I take a step back and my back hit the kitchen counter. He comes more close and now his body is pressed against mine.

"O-okay" I stutter looking at his lips just as he was looking at mine. And at this moment, I know that he wants it to happen too.

He moves his head forward so now our noses were touching. He stops and look into my eyes as if he is asking me if he should continue and I blink as an approval. He places one of his hands on my back holding me firmly while the other one secured the back of my neck. He crashes his soft lips against mine and starts kissing. We both close our eyes lost in the moment. His kiss tasting like peppermint. I wrap my hands on his neck pulling him closer.

Our lips moving against each other in the perfect sync. This is my first kiss and its with the person I've admired the most in my life. It feels perfect in his protective and strong arms which are holding me close to him. There's nothing I would rather want than to be in this moment forever.

My hands move from his neck to his soft and plush hair ruffling it. His kiss starts growing deep when he starts licking and biting my bottom lips begging for entrance making the butterflies in my stomach go crazy. Involved in the moment I give in and start kissing him back. Our tongues fight against each other and he starts trailing kisses from my lips to my jawline making his way to my neck sucking and kissing it. I throw my head back in pleasure while his hands move to my hips running up and down my body.

I immediately get back to my senses and put my hands on his hard and lean chest trying to stop him.

"Robert" My voice barely above a whisper. He sigh in my collarbone and stops kissing pulling his head back. As much as we wanted to continue this, we both knew that it was wrong at so many levels.

He takes one step back and I miss the  warmth of his lean body close to me.

"I'm sorry" he sigh looking down.

I clear my throat. I am speechless as I can't find the proper words for this situation. "Uhh you must be tired. You can sleep in the guest room." I say and turn around to continue washing the dishes.

I can see from the corner of my eyes that he is still standing in the same place. His eyes burning holes on my back. I ignore and continue my work.

I turn back to him. "Come on! I'll show you the room." I say and start walking, him following behind me.

I show him the room and go to my bedroom throwing myself on the bed.  I bury my head on the pillow and mentally scold myself for still thinking about his lips, his kiss, his smell, him. I can still feel the taste of his lips. I didn't know that I was starving till I tasted him.

*ROBERT's POV*

Stacy turned around and i followed her to the guest room. I was trying to gauge a reaction out of her but did  not once meet my eye. I opened my mouth to say something but she beat me to it and hurriedly said goodnight and went to her room , the one across from mine.

As soon as she closed the door behind her, i sat on the bed with my head on my hands and started cursing myself.

"Shit! Shit! Shit!" I cursed.

Why? Why did i have to do this?  Why did i have to kiss her? Why couldn't i resist myself?
I couldn't control myself and crossed my line and ruined everything.

Now she's gonna hate me. Forever.
She idolised me and I kissed her without thinking about anything. But then, she always  looked so sweet and so pure .  I couldn't even concentrate on the movie. I knew it was her favourite movie and she wanted me to like it. But how can you concentrate on a movie when  she was looking so beautiful by just sitting there doing nothing. I could  watch her all day.
I don't know what came over me when i kissed her. It was so wrong. But when it was wrong, why did it feel so good. I have  never felt like that with anyone. Ever. It was like she completed me in every way.

I sighed. No matter what  i feel, it is not possible. "We" are not possible. She is too young and i am too old for her. This is never gonna work.  I feel so horrible and i just wanna run to her and say that even everything might change after this, i don't want to ruin our friendship. I have never been so open to anyone ever before. She made me feel free like fresh air.

As i settled into the bed with  thoughts racing in my mind, i decided that tomorrow i am just gonna confront her and I'll accept it if she says that she does not want us this way. But i am not going to give up on our friendship even if I had to control my feelings for her.

Sleep finally overcame me with these thoughts and a special girl in my mind.
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A/N

Robert's POV was written by a friend and I loved it so much! This proves I'm a crappy writer lol. Sorry for that :") Also, if you're reading this story, I'm very thankful to you! *hugs & kisses*