My Love Gone Forever

Alone

Today Levi thought was a rough day. I need to get some tea.

Levi was just about to leave when Mikasa behind him said "Hey, where are you going?"

"No where just leave me alone" Levi said walking away.

Where Levi was really going was to an abandon house, where he made that house a home.

Levi walked into the house. He went to his bed, and laid on it looking at the ceiling.

"Why? Why. Why her. Why her at that point in time. Goddammit why! Why was I not there for her when she needed me the most!" he yelled to himself.

Levi got up and looked in the mirror. His face was leaking with water, his eyes were red, and his heart hurt. He was crying. He was crying because the love of his life is dead and he was not there to save her.

Levi was dead inside. He had no reason to live. He had no reason to keep living because the only person that mattered to him the most was gone, and out of this world.

Levi could not stand living with himself anymore. Everytime he gets close to someone they end up dying.

"Isabella, Farland, my mother, and now even your dead because I let you die. Why! Why can't I love someone and be at peace with them, without them dying!"

Levi went up to the wall and started punching it. "She's dead. She's dead. I can't bring her back! I can't get her back!" Levi said crying as he was punching the wall.

Once his knuckles started throbbing he went to go and wash his hands. After that he made himself a cup of tea. After staring at the empty house he started to remember his squad.

He remembered them sitting at at a table just like this, talking, having fun. Of course Levi never said anything all he ever did was just stare.

*Flashback*

"Oh Levi lighten up. Smile a little bit why won't you. We got through the day and we even got more recruits than usual" said Petra.

"I am not mad or anything. I'm just annoyed by some of the kids."

"It was an accident Levi, he did not mean to run into you with a bucket of dirt."

"He got my clothes dirty. I am going to be annoyed."

"Well when he saw your face you know, he almost peed his pants. That's how bad you scared him. At least show some emotion."

Levi looked at Petra with a straight face.

"OK that's not what I ment. Anyway here you go, now give me your dirty clothes so you don't get anymore dirty yourself."

Levi tired to say 'thank you' but nothing came out of his mouth. And like that she was gone.

*Out of Flashback*

Levi remembered how he would never had a long conversation with anyone but Petra. He had so many chances to tell her that he loved her but he never did it and now it was too late.

"Oh Petra, I'm sorry."

Levi realized again that he was not talking to anyone. Even if he said anything to her she would never hear because Petra is dead.

Levi would never hear her laugh again, see her smile, hear her voice, see her kind heart, or see her face ever.

Levi finished his tea and went back to his bed,  stuffed his face in a pillow, and started crying.

He never cried a lot in his life but Levi was crying out of a broken heart. He did not cry when his mother died. He cried when Isabella and Farland died, but not as much as he is for Petra.

"Le..Le...vi.... p... please.... c.. com...come..... h...here" said Petra slumped up against a tree.

"H-h-hold...... m-my... ha.... han... d..... be...be....fore... I...I..I..g...g...go."

"No, hold on Petra. I'll save you just hold on a little while longer" Levi said as he grabbed Petra and held  her in his arms.

"I.. I'm... n...not... g..g.... oing.... to... be here.... m...much..... lon... ger.... s... so... all....... I...I..wan...ted... t..t...to ...te...tell.... y..y..you... that.... I.. l...l..love....."

Like that she was dead in Levi's arms.

"Petra? Petra no finish. Petra don't leave me. I'm sorry. Please don't go. I love you. Can you hear me I love you. Please say it back. Please! PETRA!!!!!"

Levi woke up. He  had cried himself to sleep. It was four in the morning. He looked at his pillow and it had a bunch of wet spots from his crying.

He looked in the mirror and his eyes were bloodshot red and his face was red. His nose was stuffy. In a long time Levi has never felt this bad.

He went to the a drawer that was in the kitchen. And pulled out clothing.

It was Petra's cape and a picture. Levi took it to the counter and stood at it.

"It's all my fault" he said crying and staring at her picture "If I would have been there at that moment you would have still been alive and I would have told you that I love you. It's my fault that your dead and your death is a death I will ever forget."

The last time Levi saw Petra was when her body was being dumped out of a carriage. He saw her bloody face and her hair. He could not look away.

Levi stood up and looked at the cape that he took from her. Then something fell out of it. He picked it up and saw that it was her badge. On the back something was written on it and it said "I will dedicate my life working for the Wings Of Freedom. It was always an honor working there. Most of all it was an honor working alongside Levi Ackerman humanity's strongest solider.

Levi just looked at it and held it I'm his hand. Just had he was about to put it away he heard something outside. Levi wiped off his face and and took a knife form the counter and went to the door.

Whenever someone opened the door Levi took the knife and held it to the man's throat.

"Don't...... Move."

A/N: This might be a little late but this was one of my first stories on wattpad and I looked back at it and it was horrible so I unpublished it and rewrote on it and here you go. If you liked it vote/comment. Thanks for reading!