Notes and shiz

I just wanted to state this fact

I'm not an insomniac, even though I rarely sleep at night. I am not a very open person, even though I may appear to be. I am often reluctant to help people, even though I often do so anyways.

Now, for the actual thing, I want to tell you all is a problem I've been dealing with for almost 2 years now. Oneirophobia. The fear of dreams.

Almost every time I go to sleep and enter REM (Rapid Eye Movement, this is the state in which you dream), I often wake up in a cold sweat. Not only that, but my dreams scare me to the point where I once almost knocked my skull open upon waking up.

How? We have a spiral staircase almost right outside my room, leading down to the kitchen. I rushed out and nearly fell forward on it. At 4 in the morning... I would've died if I hadn't grabbed the railing in time...

So, like any Oneirophobe, I avoid sleep as much as possible, often passing out from pure fatigue. This does not help my situation whatsoever as I cannot distinguish dream from reality.

But there is an upside to this...

Many, many of my creations, mainly those like EkyrtS and Montague, are very similar to the creatures in my dreams. These creatures allow me much more creativity than I would be able to access normally. 

Just know, that the reason I don't sleep much is not because I can't. It's because I don't want to