I'll Show You Your Tattoo So You Know I Love You

Contenment -5-

GREG'S P.O.V
I woke up the next morning feeling slightly hungover because of all the crying I did, and decided once again to never cry again(we all know that won't happen because you know, I'm emotionally unstable). I swear I've never wanted to stay in bed so bad simply because I wasn't feeling existence today.
"GREG GET DOWN HERE I MADE BREAKFAST!!!" Ness shouted from the kitchen.
She always made breakfast after my breakups and if I didn't come down there within five minutes she'd come drag me out of bed. "COMING NESS!" I shouted back.
"WELL HURRY UP! CHASE RAN DOWN RIGHT AFTER I CALLED YOU DOWN!" Ness shouted.
That comment made my run down as fast as I could because Chase never had food left after 5 minutes. "I'm-" I said with a deep breath "here."
"Here's your plate." Ness said handing me a plate with pancakes and turkey bacon."I almost had to fight Chase off."
"Don't be flattered Ness." Chase said rolling his eyes. "You only cook how you and Greg like with your fake bacon and runny eggs."
"Hey-" I said swallowing a bite of pancake. "It's good shit. I just don't feel eggs after emotional trauma and she knows that. She gets me"
"It's because you're twins." Chase replied "I bet if I had a twin they would know what I liked."
"Actually..." Ness began. "We weren't always like this. I feel like you would remember how different we were as kids." Ness said with a giggle
"Yeah..." He said. "You guys fought constantly until mom made you guys start having 5 minutes of sit down time every fight."
"True, we hated that initially but it's how we know so much about each other now." I said with a smile "You guys always know how to take my mind off things."
"What're are siblings for?" They said in unison.
After breakfast I went back to bed to sleep my life away for the rest of the day but I ended waking up mid day. For majority of the time I just sat and stared at the ceiling so I decided to write.
Dear Journal,
I hope my future wife is like Ginger in the sense that she takes care of those she loves. I want my future wife to stick up for those she cares about even if it's in a joking sense. I want her to always show her love for me no matter where we are even if it's in the small ways. Lastly I want her to slay claim to me and show off my tattoo on her body.
With hope,
Gregory Quinton Fredricks
I really think this journal was a good idea but now I can't go to sleep so I think I might go surprise Kat because she hasn't posted on Snapchat all day. I got dressed and grabbed my keys and headed out the door to the store to grab her favourite candy.
When I got to Kat's house her mom answered the door and directed me towards her room.
"Hey Kat-" I stopped in awe of what I just saw.
"GREG!" She whisper shouted and pulled me into the room. "What are you doing here?!"
"Uhhhhh I was gonna surprise you." I said "I brought you Twizzlers. Do you think you might want to get dressed and explain to me what I just saw?"
"Oh shit sorry." She said putting on a big t-shirt. "Thanks for the Twizzlers. I think you know what I was doing." She said grabbing my hand and guiding me to sit on the bed with her.
"Yes, I do." I said putting a hand on her shoulder. "What I don't understand is why Kat."
"Because I was so tired of looking at them in the mirror." She said with tears beginning to fall. "So I-" I cut her off.
"Kat you know that's dangerous." I said grabbing her to hold her in my arms. "If you want a tattoo removed you need to go see a professional. You can't just cut it off with a razor Katie." I said with tears in my eyes.
"I'm sorry Greg." She said latching onto my side. "I was so tired of falling in love so easy." She said lifting her shirt.
When she lifted her shirt all I wanted to do was cry. She had scars from previously healed cuts, blood running from two different tattoos, and one untouched tattoo. "Kat....." I said grabbing her and laying down. "Never do anything like that again. Promise me right now Katie Ann Roberts!" I said
"I can't just stop Greg." She said.
I knew self harm and not being happy with your image isn't something you couldn't just stop doing. It's like an addiction in a way; you can have withdrawals that feel worse than the action itself. "I know Kat." I said with tears in my eyes. "Just please try your hardest to not do it so much until you finally can quit." I pulled her closer. I've never felt so torn towards someone I was holding in my arms. "Kat you know we love you right?" I said with fear.
     "Yes Greg." She said with sadness. "I know you guys love me."
I never wanted to leave her side after that moment; I never thought I'd see someone I genuinely cared about so hurt. "Do you want me to call Ginger?" I asked.
"No." She sniffled. "I don't want her to see me like this. It would hurt her to a point of no repair."
"Kat." I said feeling tears begin to fall. "This hurts me. Seeing one of my best friends in a state of pain that I can't save them from hurts."
"But why Greg?" She asked tilting her head up towards me.
"Because I've been here." I said showing her the scars on my ankle and above knee. "Those aren't all. There are two more places."
"But you've never fallen in love Greg." She said getting up to face me. "You don't know how it feels to have to look at a tattoo and have millions of memories hit you at once. You don't know how I feel Greg. You have no reason to do that."
At that moment I wanted to leave but I didn't. She was only acting this way because she was confused; so I pulled her back in my arms to lay down with me. "Kat." I said. "You're right that I've never fallen in love. You're right that I've never had memories hit me like a ton of bricks. However, you're wrong that I have no reason to do what I did." I paused I needed to breathe or else I would break down and she didn't need to see me that way, not now. "I did it because of the guilt of never falling in love. I cut where my tattoo is on them. Abby had it on her ankle. Kaitlynn had it above her knee. May had it on her shoulder. Frankie had it on her ribcage. Lastly Denise had it above her belly button but I haven't cut there yet. Something told me not to."
"Wow." Kat said latching on to my side again. "I'm so sorry Greg. I didn't even think that-. I'm sorry."
"It's okay Kat." I said "You didn't know. Let's watch a movie to take your mind off things."
"Okay." She said turning on the tv. "I have Snow White recorded."
I loved Snow White and I have since I was very little and everyone but Kat always made fun of me for it; it was her favourite movie too. "Let's watch it." I said.
"Okay." She said turning it on.
We got about to the middle of the movie before Kat fell asleep but I still decided to stick around not only because she needed me but also because she was asleep on me arm. Just then Ness texted me.
10:45
Twinster❤️:WHERE ARE YOU CURFEW IN 15?!!! MOMS GONNA GO HAYWIRE!
10:46
Me:Cover for me. Kat needs me. Tell her I'm staying at Weston's tonight.
10:50
Twinster❤️: Hookup??????
10:51
Me: No Vanessa Anne. You know very well I do not like her that way. She's just going through a lot right now. Just please can you cover for me?
10:53
Twinster❤️: Yeah, I already told her and she's in bed. I told her you'd be home by afternoon tomorrow.
10:54
Me:Thanks Ness❤️❤️❤️. Best sister ever!!!
10:55
Twinster❤️: No problem. See you tomorrow. Love❤️❤️
10:57
Me: Love❤️
I felt my eyes getting heavier and heavier to the point where I couldn't keep them open anymore and I eventually fell asleep with Kat in my arms.
12:00 am
I heard the door creak open and a blanket getting draped over Kat and I. Her mom knew we were best friends so she didn't seem to care that I was staying over. I looked down and saw that Kat had rolled into my body so I wrapped my arms all the way around her and went back to sleep. This is the most content I've felt since Denise and I split. I was so lucky.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter because I enjoyed writing it😁. I love writing this book❤️❤️. See you next week!