I'll Show You Your Tattoo So You Know I Love You

-7-

GREG'S P.O.V
I pulled away from Kat only to see her in pure shock. I have never felt so guilty in my entire life; I'm pretty sure I just ruined my friendship. "I am so sorry Kat. I shouldn't have done that, you didn't deserve it..." I muttered through nearly closed lips, "I'll take you home."
    The drive home felt like forever, so much time to think about my mistakes. When we got to her house she got out without saying a single word to me. The world around me felt like it was caving in; I didn't know what to do. I wanted to go home, curl up into a ball and stay there for the rest of my life.
KAT'S P.O.V
    I can't believe that he did that to me. What an asshole. He was only thinking about himself. What about me, what about my feelings. I wanted to scream, yell, cry, dance, sing, throw things and yet I couldn't bring myself to do those things; almost as if I felt nothing.
    Maybe I should call him.
    No. That's what he wants. Do not give him what he wants.
    But what if he wants to apologize?
    Then he shouldn't have done it in the first place.
    He is my best friend.BEST FRIEND.   
    he will never be anything more.
    But I like Greg and now I know he likes me.
    No I don't.
    Nothing more than friends.
2 days later
GREG'S P.O.V
It's been 2 days and Kat still hasn't spoken to me. Sending streaks is the most communication I've gotten from her at all; I miss Kat. Her cousin tells me shes doing fine and it puts me at ease; I still worry though. Heather has been very obviously hitting on me, it's nice, I'm just not ready yet. I want....or I guess now it'd be wanted Kat. I really felt like we had something but I guess I was wrong; like I am most of the time. Maybe I should go for Heather; anything that will keep Kat off my mind. I should try writing in my journal...Maybe it'll help.
Dear Journal,
I kissed Kat. She didn't like it. I haven't been able to think straight since. I can't seem to bounce back from this. I need a distraction. I'm thinking Heather will work. I usually don't do those things but I feel like I have to. I don't know what else to do. Wish me luck.
    With love,
Gregory Quinton Fredricks
    That helped a little I suppose, a tiny bit of release.
    "Hey Bub" Ness said poking her head in the door, "I noticed you've not talked much these past couple days so I got you some ice cream."
    "What's the catch?" I replied
    "What catch?" She said acting innocent, "I am just being a loving sister."
    "I call BS Nessa. You're obviously hiding something. I can only see your face." I said cautiously
    "Fair enough." She said inching into my room, "It comes with something."
    "Vanessa I swear to god!" I said running for cover from the invisible threat.
    "Ice water!" She shouted pulling a tiny water pistol from behind her back.
"VANESSA!" I shouted  while trying to dodge the sprits of water. After it was all over my bed and I were both soaked but it was worth it; it cheered me up. I am so glad to have Ness as my sister but I am most definitely getting her back for that. Although I still missed my best friend with all of my heart and soul I figured that since I had caused it I had to do my best to try and fix it. I wonder if I should call her to tell her how sorry I am but, I know she wouldn't pick up the phone anyways; my best bet would be to text her.
4:57 pm
Me: Hey
read: 5:00pm
6:23 pm
Me: I'm sorry Katie, I really am
read: 6:27 pm
7:00 pm
Me: I'm guessing you don't want to talk to me and thats okay. Just wanted to let you know that I am truly sorry for what I did....
read: 7:03 pm
10:53 pm
Kat: ...
Me: I'll accept any kind of response at this point.
Kat: you should not have kissed me.
Me: I know and I'm sorry.
read: 11:04 pm
12:56 am
Kat: I didn't deserve that Greg. I trusted you and I feel like you betrayed that trust. Believe or not I was actually beginning to think I liked you. After that though. I don't know. Just give me some space.
Me: I'll apologize as many times as it takes Kat...just let me know when you're ready to let me back in.
read: 1:07 am
That didn't go as planned but I guess nothing can truly be 100% planned in this crazy world. At least she knows how sorry I am. I can only hope that she accepts my apology. For now I should just try to sleep it off.