If You're Not The One

The One-shot

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?

1 buwan pa lang siyang nanliligaw. pero yes, kami na. Napa oo ako nung birthday ko. Ang bongga naman kase ng effort nya. Saka wala naman yun sa tagal ng panliligaw di ba? Kasi kung mahal mo talaga, edi mahal mo. Sasagutin at sasagutin mo din naman eh, bat papatagalin pa?

If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?

Ang hilig nyang hawakan yung kamay ko pag magkasama kami. Yung tipong ayaw nya na talagang bitawan. And I can't help but blush when I see our fingers intertwined. It looks like they're created to be like that.

If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?

Everytime na magpapaalam kami sa isa't isa, yung bago kami umuwi, we hug each other. Ewan ko. Nakasanayan na and I like it. But I also hate it at the same time. Everytime kase na magh.hug kame, my heart just beats so fast. Nahihiya akong marinig nya. Pero di ko maiwasang mag-smile whenever I hear that his heartbeat is also loud like mine.

If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I'm weak. I'm fragile. Pero ewan ko ba, he makes me strong. He is the only reason why I keep going.

I never know what the future brings

Hindi ko alam kung magtatagal ba kami. Hindi ko alam kung maghihiwalay ba kame or what. Hindi ko alam kung kami pa din ba bukas o sa makalawa.

But I know you're here with me now

Ang dami kong iniisip, andami kong kinakatakutan. But the only thing I know is nandito pa sya and that's all that matters now.

We'll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with

Kahit ano pa ang mga pagdadaanan namin, alam kong kakayanin namin.  Kahit pa it's us against the world.

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it I don't understand

I don't know what happened. Bigla nalang sya naging cold. Di ko alam kung may nagawa ba ako or what. He doesn't approach me, pag ako naman yung lalapit, he'll do everything para umiwas. How can I talk to him? How will I know what happened to us?

If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?

I don't wanna give up on us. What about OUR FOREVER? Does FOREVER ends here?

Is there any way that I could stay in your arms?

Wala na ba talagang pag-asa? Hindi na ba pwedeng ibalik sa dati? I'll risk everything just to have him back.

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?

Sleepless nights. Or sometimes I sleep for at least a minute or so. I don't eat. I'm too tired to do anything. All I ever wanted to do was cry. Iniisip ko kase na pag nalaman nyang hindi ako natutulog, hindi ako kumakain, hindi ako tumitigil sa pag-iyak, magagalit sya. Makukuha ko yung atensyon nya, then I'd have him back. Pathetic right?

If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?

Just as I didn't stopped crying, I also never stopped thinking of him, of us. What we were before, what happened to us now and what could have been if we're still together. I can't think of anything else. He has filled every space in my mind, in my heart, and in my soul.