If You're Not The One

Chapter Six: Fix You

Nagtatalo kami kung saan gaganapin yung iyakan session: kung sa bahay nila o sa bahay namin. Wala naman daw yung parents niya kaya hindi nakakahiya kahit magwala ako sa bahay nila. Sabi ko na wala din naman parents ko sa bahay kaya mas lalong hindi nakakahiya na magwala, saka atleast pwede akong manira ng gamit sa bahay namin. Ang tagal naming nagkukulitan. But in the end syempre ako yung nanalo. *evil laugh*

Nasa tapat na kami ng bahay namin. Nag-aantay nalang ng magbubukas ng gate pero tawa ng tawa si Zeke.

"Zeke, okay ka lang? Naulanan ka lang nabaliw ka na?"

"Hinde. Hahahaha."

"E ano? Ano bang nakakatawa?"

"Ang tagal pa nating nagtalo, magkatapat lang naman pala yung bahay natin. HAHAHAHAHAH."

Okaaay. That was epic. Pumasok na kami sa loob. Pinilit kami ni yaya na maligo muna habang iniinit niya yung hapunan kaya wala kaming nagawa. Nagpaalam ako na aakyat muna, nagpaalam naman siya na uuwi muna para makapagpalit.

After 30 minutes, bumaba nadin ako para kumain. Kanina pa pala andun si Zeke. Hindi na naman sya masyadong ininterview ni yaya kasi bff na pala sila nung yaya ni Zeke. Binilinan lang kami na magpahinga na din after.

Pagkatapos kumain, sinimulan na naming yung iyakan/inuman session. Kwento lang ako ng kwento habang nakikinig lang din siya. Paminsan may mga luhang tumutulo, pero pinupunasan nya naman agad. Naka 12 cans din kami, tapos naka idlip sya sa sofa.

Lumapit naman ako sa piano na nasa sala rin. Ang tagal ko na din palang hindi nakakatugtog, masyado na kasi agong naging busy sa ibang bagay. I started playing..

Talking to myself for reasons I can't find

Finding out why everything went wrong

Tears falling down my cheeks

That I've been trying to hold

I just don't know if I could still go on.

Ano bang nagawa kong mali? He could've told me and I would definitely do something about it. Ang hirap eh. Hindi ko alam kung paano pag wala ka na.

I wanted you to stay,

The tears began to show.

You said you care for me,

But then you have to go.

And now I know you're gone

Akala ko ba ako yung mas mahal mo? Anong nangyari? Bakit ako yung naiwan?

I don't want to remember the things we used to do

Or the things that reminds me of you

I don't want to hear those songs,

Those songs we used to sing

Cause I don't want to feel the pain in my heart

Yeah. I've had enough. Ayoko na. I should move on, I have to move on. Wallowing in misery is a luxury I can't afford so moving on is a must. Nararamdaman ko nanaman na tutulo yung mga luha ko. Kaya humiga nalang ako sa sofa na malapit dun. Nakapikit na ako, patulog na nga e, kaso nakarinig ako ng strum ng gitara.

Hmm...

He let you down, he never did try in the first place

I know that you already hate this mess of

I'll make sure that you are doing okay,

I'll make sure that you are smiling

So trust girl

So hush, hush, hush dear

Coz everything is gonna be fine now

When you're down, I'll cheer you up

When you're crying I'll make it stop

When you want to forget your regrets

I'll try to fix you

When you're cold, I'll hold you tight

Whisper softly that it's alright

When you want to forget your regrets

You can count on me to fix you

Know that I'm better

Siguro mas kilala ka nya, but I have all the time in the world to get to know you more.

I'll never leave you not ever

I may not be perfect, baka awayin kita o mapaiyak, but I promise not to leave you.

You can cling to me, I'm right here with you

I'm right here, right here with you.....

Nandito lang ako palagi sa likod mo. Hindi ako mawawala. I know you're broken, your world is shattered into pieces. But if you just give every piece to me, I promise I'll try to put them together. Mahihirapan akong buuin ka, but I don't care. I may hurt myself along the process, but I don't mind. I'll do everything to mend your heart. Whatever it takes, I will fix you my princess.