Scars

Scar #3

Heaven's P.O.V

Everything was going well with my life ever since the incident. Tinatry ko yung best ko para hindi pansinin yung mga hate na natatanggap ko at tinutulungan din ako ng mga taong nasa paligid ko.

Habang naghihintay na magtape para sa teleserye na part kami ni Markus ay naisipan kong mag scroll sa twitter timeline ko at naisipang magtweet.

I continued to browse through my twitter when I decided to stalk some fanpages. When I went to a particular fanpage nakita ko siyang nagrarant about hates and all thag. At nataka naman ako kung bakit. Maybe because of the usual hates I get or idk. Pero I continued to scroll through the fanpage and saw that nakikipagaway siya sa isang fan page ni Markus.

I decided to click on the tweet para makita kung ano ang pinagaawayan nila. I scrolled up to see all the replies and what it was all about.

After about one minute of scrolling I saw what they were fighting about.

Reading that thread, I know hindi ko dapat panowalaan pero hindi ko din maowasang isipin na baka nga tama tong fan ni Markus. Baka nga napipigilan ko lang siya sa mga gusto niyang gawin. Baka nga mas sikat siya kung wala ako. Baka nga sinasayang ko lang ang oras niya. And maybe he's just here for me dahil naawa siya hindi dahil mahal niya ako. Or maybe naiisip niya lang na mahal niya ako dahil naawa siya sa akin. Its true no one loves me and no one ever will. Ayaw kong madumihan ang image niya dahil lang sa akin. Kaya kailangan ko na atang gawin ang matagal ko ng dapat gawin.

Sa naiisip ko napaiyak ako. Dahil ang sakit sa pakiramdam isipin na baka tama nga sila. Baka hindi talaga ako mahal ni Markus. Kaya lumabas ako at hinanap siya.

Naglakad lakad lang ako kung saan gusto ng paa ko pumunta. Hindi rin nagtagal nakita ko na si Markus.

Nung nakita niya ako biglang lumaki ang ngiti niya kaya, mas lalo lang akong napaiyak.

"Hi baby!" Sabi niya sa akin habang niyakap ako at hinalik sa noo ko.

"Markus, I think we need to talk." Sabi ko. At biglang nawala ang ngiti niya dahil alam niyang hindi maganda ang mangyayari.

"Okay. Tungkol saan?" Pagaalala niyang tanong.

"Um. I think it would be better if umupo tayo." So pumunta kami sa may garden ng ABS kung saan walang tao.

"Okay anong pag uusapan natin? Did someone hurt you? Are you sik? Okay ka lang ba?" He asked panicking.

"No, I'm okay." Sabi ko ng walang gana.

"Are you sure baka gutom ka or what?" Hindi parin mawala ang pag-alala niya sa mukha niya.

"I think we should break up." I said straight to the point and started breaking down into tears again.

"You're joking right? Its not a good joke baby." Sabi niya sa akin na may halong kaba.

"Im serious." Sabi ko habang umiiyak pa rin.

"What makes you say that Heaven? Did I do anything wrong?" Tanong niya

"No you didn't do anything."

"Then why?"

Markus' P.O.V

Here I am now devastated about what I just heard from Heaven. She wants to break up with me. Why? Did I do something? Did she find someone else? Please tell me.

"I just feel like I am holding you back from doing things you love. And ever since we've been together some of your fans left saying that they'll only come back once you've realized that being with me is wrong."

"Is it because of that stupid thread in twitter Heaven? Because thats bullshit! I've read it and believe me none of it is true." I said recalling the words written in that thread that a 'fan' has made on twitter. Nabasa ko because my PA saw it and sent it to me.

"Its not just the thread. I've realized that maybe its true. Maybe you really just pity me. Maybe I'm really holding you back."

"Is that what you really want? Because I don't want that. And even if we break up, which we won't, they still can't do anything because we have projects together that we already agreed on doing." Sabi ko.

"But I might ruin your image. I'm not the perfect girl your fans want you to be with."

"If they don't think you're the perfect girl for me then they're nit real fans." I said. "A real fan would be happy when I am happy. And I am happy when I am with you so they should just accept that." Pagpapatuloy ko. "I didn't loose anything from being with you. Infact, I gained a lot of things. You helped me be who I am today and you also helped me realize who my true fans are. And if we were to break up I'm sure it won't make me more famous. It'll just make me miserable. Now please tell me honestly, Do you really want to break up with me?"

Heaven's P.O.V

What he said struck me and made me realize how stupid I am for listening to that 'fan' and for underestimating Markus' love for me.

"No. I don't want to break up with you I am so sorry." Sabi ko habang umiiyak.

Tumayo siya at tumabi sa akin at niyakap ako.

"Its okay. Now please never do that again okay." Sabi niya habang nakayakap sa akin. Tumango lang ako bilang sagot.

"Good. I love you baby." He said and kissed the top of my head.

"I love you too."

"Now that this is all settled can we go now, dahil baka hinahanap na tayo ni direk." He said while grabbing my face to face him and wiping my tears using his thumbs while I wipe his using my thumbs.

Pagkatapos namin punasan ang mga mukha namin, tumayo na kami at napagdesisyunan na pumunta sa filming area dahil malayo layo pa ng kaunti yung lalakarin namin at dahil baka hinahanap na kami.

Naglakad lang kami habang nakaakbay siya sakin.

"I love you always remember that baby." Sabi niya while squeezing me.

"I love you too."