"I wanted an escape from all the pain and the only thing I could think of was cutting." - Heaven Peralejo
"I want her to stop but she never does so I'll give her a taste of her own medicine." - Markus Paterson
*warning: contains self harm
Probably the second to the last chapter. Sorry I made this story short. ✌️😊
Heaven's P.O.V
Today will be the day of our premiere night for the movie na ginawa namin ni Markus. Kasalukun akong nagfifit ng gown na susuotin ko para tignan ko okay na ba at kung talagang red carpet ready. Simple lang naman kasi ang susuotin ko, isang off shoulder dress na burgundy. Burgundy dress ko para daw terno kami ni Markus na burgundy din ang suit.
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Natapos na kami mag fit at nakitang its more than ready for the premiere kaya dumiretso na ako sa area kung saan ako lalagyan ng make up. Nakita kong nakahintay doon yung glam team ko.
They prepped me for the premiere night at ng natapos na ang lahat, sinuot ko ang dress at heels ko at kinuha yung purse ko at hinintay na ang sundo ko na si Markus.
Its still 4 and the premiere night is at 8 pero dahil buhay artista call time namin ay 4:30 at dapat sa ABS magkita kota habang naghihintay para sabay na daw ang lahat.
Dumating na si Markus, nagpicture kami before leaving and then dumoretso sa ABS. Pagdating namin sa ABS nahanap namin silang lahat pero sabi nila na maghintay daw muna kami sa aming mga dressing room.
"Maina ka na sa dressing room mo I'll just follow you there may kukunin muna ako sa dressing room ko." Sabi ni Markus. Tumango lang ako pero feeling ko may kulang...
"Ay wait! Markus, can I borrow the keys to your car I think I left my purse there." Sabi ko with a smile.
"Yah sure! Hurry up okay." Sabi niya at tinapon sa akon ang susi niya which I caught by the way.
I happily walked papunta sa parking kung saan nadoon ang kotse niya. I quickly got my purse at nilock yung koyse niya agad. Naglalakad ako habang nakatingin sa phone ko ng may kumalabit sa akin. Tinignan ko kung sino ito at ang nakita ko ay isang hindi pamilyar na babae.
"Um hi! How may I help you?" Tanong ko sakanya.
"You? Help me? That's the least you can do." Sabi niya which made me confused and I think nabasa niya ang confusion ko. "Heaven Peralejo, how naive of you to think that someone actually loves you."
"People actually love me and I know that." Sabi ko confidently
"Well if you say so. Can you give me a few examples?" Sabi niya
"Leila, she loves me." Sabi ko reffering to my bestie.
"Thats what you think. She's only stuck with you because like her, you are a descendant of someone famous so she has no choice but to bond with you. Don't you also think that lately she hasn't been there for you when you needed her?" Sabi niya. Which I know is not true because Leila told me she was just busy adjusting to her new lifestyle the past fee months.
"That's not true! She's just busy she told me." I said defensively
"Well thats what she wants you to believe because she doesn't want to tell you directly that she's just forced to be with you. Plus she only pities you kasi wala lang totoong kaibigan."
"Well I know my family loves me!" Sabi ko
"If only you knew what they have been saying behind your back you would think otherwise. They just pretend they love you but they never did. You're just a burden to them. You're an outside child and obviously do not belong with them. They're trying to live their happy life as a family but you're just ruining it." Sabi niya like she knows a lot about my life.
"Markus loves me." Sabi ko
"You really think that? Hindi mo ba naiisip na naawa lang siya sayo at sa fans niyo? Don't you think na he's just using you to have a fan base and once he has a strong fam base he will leave you. Once he is known enough he will leave you. Perhaps right after the after party tonight he's gonna break up with you because he already got what he wants. And can't you see the reason why he's not with you right now is because gusto niyang mapalayo sayo dahil naririndi na siya sayo." With those words being said I've had enough. But, I won't cry because she will see how weak I am.
"Those are not true." Sabi ko, my voice cracking midway.
"Oh it is. So if I were you, I would end my life now because it will just bring you sadness not joy. Maybe you should go where you belong now. Back to where yo got your name. Maybe you should go to Heaven and be happy. I'm telling you this as an advice so think wisely and if you do decide to end your life, do it before the premiere night para hindi ka na masaktan ng sobra." With that being said umalis na siya sa pagmumukha ko.
I decided to go back to my dressing room while trying to hold back my tears. But, I couldn't because all the words she said to me brought back so many bad memories. Brought back all the hateful words from people. And I think I've made a decision that will make me and everyone happy. So I grabbed my blade and locked myself in the CR but, before I did what I had to do, I decided to leave everyone a note and once that was done, I started cutting everywhere I could. I don't care about the pain anymore what's important is matapos na tong lahat. I cut and cut and cut all over my body. Until I felt light headed. Nahihilo na ako, lumalabo na paningin ko, nanghihina na ako. Wala na akong magawa kundi tignan ang sarili kong dugo na umaagos ng walang tigil. Hindi na ako magalaw. Hindi na ako makahinga. Dumilim ang paligid ko at iisa lang ang nasa isipan ko.
