Absolution

17: Finally?

2 weeks later..

Azrael

"I told you to bring the reports to me this week, haven't I?" I glower at Profeis' small form in front of me.

"I-I'm sorry dad---"

I crumpled the papers and threw it on the trash bin "Your sorry cannot make up to the mess you created."

He nods and rubs his eyes, is he crying?

I sighs "Okay, take a break Profeis."

The reaper disappears in a blink of an eye and I was left alone in my home.

I slump back to my swivel chair and massages my temple. The stress is getting into me and I am having a hard time to deal with it.

Especially he is not here.

I feel bad for the Reapers since they are the one who is dealing with my crankiness these past few days.

I knotted my hands on my hair from each sides as I weep silently.

There was this missing piece in my heart that died completely along with him.

I stare at the liquor in front of me and a crazy idea creeped up in my mind.

I grabbed the bottle through its neck as I yank out the cork and I let myself drown in the bitter taste of vodka down my throat.

My vision spirals as I tried to stand and ended sprawling on the floor like a pathetic bird.

I want to feel the numbness that the alcohol can provide.

Temporary but for the meantime I wanted my mind to be free from the frustrations bubbling up within me.

I pushed myself up but I failed, I kept on lying on the floor as the door of my house opens.

If this is a demon I couldn't fight it anymore, I might end up dying here.

"Az? What the hell are you doing?" I feel myself being lifted and my head is being settled on a warm lap.

That voice is familiar.

"If you are trying to fool me, demon. You are succeeding, but not today please.. I want to be alone.." I slurred as I wriggle out awya from him.

"Get your shit together, Azrael. This is not funny, you could not just let yourself passed out from drinking a whole bottle of vodka."

I try to open my eyes widely and a familiar sky blue eyes looking down on me with a disappointed look in their depths.

I chuckle ruefully "You really did a good job for masquerading as my lover."

"Shut up, idiot. You need to sleep on your bed not on the floor." he grumbled, that's the last words I've heard from him before I passed out.
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I groan when somebody pull the dark curtains away and a sudden brightness invaded my room.

Then there's the tremendous headache, the goddamn hang over.

"Is it nice to have a hang over? I think I should ask the reapers to brought you boxes of vodka,  what do you think?" I sit up abruptly and rub my eyes.

Am I just fooling myself? Is this all in my head because I am so desperate for him to come back? Am I dreaming? Am I hallucinating? Is this what alcohol can do to our senses?

"There is no use oggling on me, Az."

I blink a couple of times, still surprised "Cas? Are you here because I am hallucinating?"

"I am still alive, idiot. You are not hallucinating." he paused "I see. You want a proof."

I see him walking towards me and he pinched my arm so hard that it made me wince in pain.

So this is the real thing?!

Without second thought, I threw my arms around him and pull him into a tight embrace like I am holding for dear life.

I burry my face on the crook of his neck and savor his warmth against mine.

With his soft and delicate body caged in my arms, it feels like home.

He is home to me.

"Az.. I.. Can't breathe."

I loosen my arms around him but not enough to let him go, as I stare at his sky blue eyes. I can see is love and longing.

"I miss you." I murmured.

He smiles at me and he touches my face "I miss you more, Az."

I touched his hand and I brought it to my lips, kissing his palm while not taking my eyes away from him.

"I still cannot believe it, you are alive. I hope this is not a dream, because I will kill anybody who wake me."

He chuckle "Silly, of course this is real. I am real."

I made him lay down on my bed and stare at his serene face. I will never get tired of looking back at those sky blue eyes and those luscious lips are mine for eternity.

He is mine and I am his.
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"So where is she now?" I asked while wrapping a blanket around Cas' body.

He smiles "She is fine now. But she needs to go back to earth.." he paused.

"And? What happened?"

He stare at me with confusion in his eyes "She forgot everything what happened and somehow everything is resetted."

Resetted?

I stiffen "What do you mean?"

No. Not this again. 

"I mean, she doesn't remember about the whole fiasco."

My eyes widened as I cursed under my breathe, throwing away the blankets around my body and pulls on my tunic.

Cassiel does the same and now we are walking out of my bedroom.

This can't be happening.
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A/N: Earlier as I expected but I kinda have a penchant for a sucky ending. *v* but don't worry, everything will be explained in Epilogue 1: Gremory