Songs Of Our Life

chapter 9

Trey's Pov:

We've finally finished getting everything we need for the house...except for some stuff to fill up all the space in my room but I can gradually fill that.

After I came home last night we went for dinner and then I went straight to bed when we came home.

My mum questioned me about it this morning but I just told her I was tired...I don't need her pittying me about seeing Luke and having an internal panic attack or whatever.

"Treya dear. Why don't you go out and find some of your friends. We're all done here and I'm sure they miss you like crazy! Go see calum and his parents. I'm sure they'd love to see you!" My mum exclaims.

"I don't know mum, don't you need help with groceries later?" I ask.

"Not really, I've got it. Go visit your friends!" She smiles.

"Alright...Ok..thanks mum!" I say faking a smile and take off outside.

I don't even know who to go see. All my "girlfriends" are out of town...I could go see Ashton...

I dig the rental car keys out of my pocket and head off to Ashton's...let's hope luke isn't there.

I pull into his driveway and climb out. I get nervous as I approach his door and ring the doorbell.

There's talking on the other side of the door before Ashton answers it like he's expecting someone different.

He sees me standing there and he stops talking an just looks at me surprised.

"Hey Luke I gotta go, call me later..." He says into the phone an hangs up.

"H-hey Ash!" I smile.

He walks toward me and hugs me tight. I hug him back an instantly start to cry. He leads me inside and into the living room and we just talk for a couple hours.

"I miss him ash. I miss him so much but I can't tell him that because he's the one that wanted to end things!" I explain.

"Hey, I know for a fact he regrets everything and that he still loves you!" He explains.

"Then why end things?" I cry.

"Because he thought he was burdening you!" Ashton whispers.

I lift my face from my hands and look at him confused.

"Why would he think that?" I exclaim.

"Because you were so busy you barely got to talk to him.." He explains.

"There was only a week till I came home...he could've been patient..." I explain.

"I know but he wasn't thinking and he knows that. He was talking about how he screwed up when I was on the phone with him.." He explains.

"Oh..." I whisper.

I'm done crying... I just want to hang with my friend right now and listen to some music...maybe order pizza.

"Okay! Well now that we've talked can we listen to music and order a pizza?" I ask.

"Of course. I'll order the pizza! You put music on!" He laughs and leaves the living room.

I get up and press play on the CD player beside the TV. A song I've never heard before plays through the speakers but the band sounds familiar.

"I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all"

Ash walks in and sits on the couch. I look at him confused about who this is.

I pause it and look at him expectantly.

"What? I ordered the pizza!" He explains.

"No not that! The song, who sings it!?" I ask curiously.

"Oh...me and the boys do.." He explains, "Luke wrote that song about the day you left for London..." He explains.

"But...some of the lyrics don't match up. Like "are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you" like...who? I didn't hang out with any guys except for taken ones..." I explain.

"He didn't have enough to finish the song so he added to it some stuff that didn't match up so you wouldn't realize it was about you.." He explains.

"Oh..." I whisper.

The doorbell rings making me jump, it must be the pizza!

"I'll get it!" I smile and head toward the door.

I open the door expecting to see the pizza delivery guy but instead I see Luke, he's standing there in sweats and a hoodie, his hair is flat on top of his head and he still looks like he hadn't slept.

"Oh um...sorry...I didn't know you were here..." He says awkwardly.

"No no its okay...he's your friend too.." I smile lightly and step aside to let him inside.

"Hey ash! Luke's here!" I call to him.

He walks in in a matter of seconds and starts talking to luke.

I leave them and head into the kitchen to get a drink. I left them so they could talk without me hearing but it's obvious that didn't work cause I can still hear them.

"Damnit luke! Just man up and go apologize and get your girl back!" Ashton exclaims.

"I hurt her! I don't deserve her back!" Luke exclaims.

"Everyone deserves a second chance luke! You were doing what you thought was right!" Ashton explains.

Maybe I should go...I shouldn't be listening to them talk about me.

I grab the rental car keys off the counter and head for the door. They stop talking once I walk in.

"I think I'm gonna go. It's getting late..." I explain and reach for the door.

"What about pizza?" Ashton asks.

"Um...raincheck? I'm really tired...sorry ash!" I apologize and hug him before heading out the door. I shyly wave to luke before leaving.

I unlock the rental car doors and I'm about to get in when someone grabs my hand and turns me around.

I open my eyes to see that me and Luke are just inches apart. I can feel his breath fanning my face. His eyes roam my face before settling on my lips and before I know it, our lips are pressed together...

It feels like we'd been in that moment for eternity before I pulled away. I looked at him not sure what to say and then get in the car and drive off.

I know I'm still in love with him but....I'm scared to get back with him.