Crybaby || Phan

Crybaby || Chapter 14

Cold air, God so cold.

Why in the hell is it cold.....wait

How can I feel this.....I'm dead.

Right?

"Daniel?"

Phil! Wait this can't be.....I'm fucking dead.

I know I'm dead I'm not going insane.

I remember the bridge and me jumping in.....how.

"Daniel calm down"

Ok don't freak out its ok right it's fine just open your eyes.

Slowly and very carefully Dan opened his eyes and was shocked. There he was lying on the ground dressed in all white with the love of his life standing in front of him.

"P-phil is that really you?" His voice was shaking he could not possibly be faced to face with his dead boyfriend.

Right?

"Dan calm down, it's ok I'm here" phil moved towards him and placed a hand on his cheek. He missed these soft loving touches.

"How?" Was all dan could force out of his mouth. Phil laughed, he actually fucking laughed. It had been so long since dan had heard that gorgeous sound.

"Well i don't know to be honest....I was there you know" Dan looked at him confused. Phil sat down on the grass. Dan froze there was grass everywhere. He looked around and saw that they were under the old tree.

"This is where they laid our bodies to rest" he pointed towards two small headstones. Dan took all this in and looked back at phil. "What do u mean you were there?"

Phil sighed softly then looked straight into Dan's warm eyes. "I was there when you decided to jump" Dan gulped. "That's why you saw me in the water" Dan remembered phil being there but he thought it was just from the lack of air.

"Dan I've never been happier" Dan turned again and asked "why?" Phil leaned in close and whispered "i get to spend the rest of my endless life with you and only you" Dan blushed a feeling he missed, a feeling only caused by phil.

Dan felt the tears rolling down his cheeks stinging lightly. Phil wipped them away with his thumb. "No crying ok, I still love you I'm not mad that you are here with me god, I'm so happy but why did you kill yourself Daniel you had such a good life so many friends......yet you ended it".

Dan snifiled "You big idiot, I couldn't stand to leave you alone. I wanted to be here with you. A day with out you is like a y-year without fucking sunlight. It was so cold and dark and I missed you so much. I wanted your arms around my waist and your hands intertwined with mine. I missed that sweet little laugh you make and your hair and God those fucking eyes. I can get lost in those gorgeous blue eyes. I was so mad at you, then I realized that it wasn't you it was this awful god damn planet. They all did it. They pushed you around even though you are the sweetset person alive. You were so kind and yet they only picked on you I wish I saw it earlier. I felt like it was my fault all my fault. I could have been there and yet I let you die. I watched as the days went on and you began to fade. I-i wish I could go back in time and stop it all from happening. All the scars and God the tears. I wish but yet I already know that I can't physically go back in time and help you. If I could believe me I would be there so fast and stop it all I would have stopped the cutting and the crying, the fighting I would have never yelled or got pissed I would have held you and let you talk but yet I didn't and I'm so sorry. You loved me even though I was the worst boyfriend in the universe. I allowed you to kill you self, and hurt yourself and cry every night."

"I'm so so so sorry, Phil I truly love you"

Phil hugged Dan and cried, softly.

"I'm so sorry dan I-i didn't kn-" Dan was done with this sad shit he kissed phil. He kissed him softly and smiled. This was the thing he missed the most.

Phil's warm lips against his own.

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How was that guys. I hope it was good but as always, I will see you guys in the next chapter, and remember to stay toasty my tiny planet Explorers.
Lots of love,
Charity

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