We can't force certain people to be in your lives. Alex was my saving grace I'm so glad I have him in my life. He came in when I needed him and he stuck by me thru a lot. I couldn't imagine my life without him. I'm so grateful we're together. And I can't wait to marry him and raise our kids together. He is sticking by me while I figure things out with my mom and Colton. He still hasn't told us where he has been for six years and why he faked his death. Or who that boy is we buried in the casket where he was buried. We're not sure the story on what went thru his mind. Every since Colton came back there is so much mystery behind him. But I try to not worry myself with it. Because I mean I'm not sure I even want to know the truth anymore. Alex and me moved out of the house me and Colton got together in our own house. It is one step up to being completely done with Colton. We moved an hour away from the small town to get a fresh start. I didn't want Colton to ruin my new life I'm having with Alex. So I'm glad we moved out of that town because I don't want anymore drama with Colton. And his family thinks because I moved on I'm taking Bella away from her dad. And I'm not I just don't want him to meet her because he don't deserve that at all. I hate to say that because I use to love that man but now I'm not sure if I ever want to have him in her life.
We were having family dinner when I heard my phone go off I just let it go to voicemail. Then I heard it go off again it was my mom. I hit ignore I didn't want to anything she said. As I was walking back to my chair I heard it ring again when I picked it up she was in tears like crying. " it's your dad Kayla he was in a bad wreck. He is on life support in the hospital." I fell to the floor and threw my phone on the floor screamed. Alex ran to me and said," I'm here. I'm here what is going on." My heart stopped and yelled," my dad!!" He picked up my phone and I was crying Bella was running to me and I said," it's okay I'm fine baby I love you." She hugged me and I was so scared for my dad. Alex was going to take the kids to his moms and meet me at the hospital. I was so scared to loose my dad he is my everything. I love him and I don't want to loose him. When I got to the hospital I was so scared to see him like that. He was laying in the hospital hooked up to all the machines. He didn't look my dad at all his face was so scratched up and bruised. I looked at my mom and said," how did this happen?" She sat down and went thru what happened. My dad was headed over to see me and he was speeding and a mac truck came out in front of him and he couldn't stop in time. Why would my dad stop by unannounced on a day he was suppose to work? I kinda found that odd. As my mom left the room I tired to hold my dads hand. To find a note all rolled up. I pulled it out of his hand and said down. " Dear Kayla- your my greatest joy in life. I'm so proud of the amazing young lady you've become.
And I don't want you to be afraid of the journey your about to go thru alone. I love you endless and I will always be your dad. But I'm going thru some tough times right now. And a grown man saying to his baby girl must be tough. But I'm ready to take on the next journey of life go to heaven. I'm so sorry I know you don't understand. But I love you so much and I was so proud to be your dad. You made my life worth living and seeing you become a mom was the greatest thing in my life. I love you Kayla and I'm so sorry. - dad" My heart broke into a million pieces the man I loved so much wanted to leave this world. It honestly felt like I was all alone in this world. Everyone was trying to leave me and I'm not sure how I'm suppose to make it without my backbone. I love my dad. As I was about to leave for the night Alex walked in. I smiled and said," come here it is okay." He walked in and took my hand. " Kayla after everything you've been thru I'm glad your here." He always knew how to make me feel better and I'm so glad I met him.
