Almost a year after I was at the lowest point of my life. While raising my five year old daughter I was so lost on how I can make it without Colton until everything in my life changed. At the lowest point of my life I met someone named Alex he stole my heart. And he made me smile. I was finally happy and I couldn't wait to start my life next to him. And I know Colton would want me to be happy. And Alex made me happy and I wasn't going around looking for him he just showed up at the lowest part of my life. I'm so grateful I have him. Alex takes Bella under his wing and his son was taken under my wing. We were finally going to be a family. He came into my life with a beautiful two year old son. And I'm so glad I have them in my life. With Alex he understood Colton was a touchy subject for me but he was going to try to be everything I need. I'm so glad I have him and my family. Being a mom to your first baby was so scary especially in the situation I was in. Alex brought his son in the relationship and I was glad he did. Because in a year into this relationship I love that baby more than anything. And I can't wait to watch him grow up and be the best he can be. Alex and his mom were a one nights and she singed away all her rights. I guess you can't force someone to be a mom. I'm starting to realize as i see my Bella grow up she is also a reminder of how many years Colton has been gone. And how much he misses seeing her growing up. I'm not sure why this happened I'm not happy it did. But I'm starting to realize that I can move on with my life and be happy.
It was November the air was getting colder and the colors were changing all around. I've always loved this time of the year because it is a time when family's get close. And I'm so glad I have the dad I do. Because of him
I mean I'm who I am because of him. He raised me on my own and taught me what to accept from a man. I'm so glad I have him he saved me from going down a dark path when I lost Colton. He taught me that my little girl needed me and since she wouldn't have both of us that I had to be both for her. He truly was there thru everything. I sat down on the couch reading a book. It was before all the kids were up and running around, I heard the floor creak very quietly. I thought it was Bella getting up early for school. But when I saw Alex I smiled as he came and stood in front of me. He looked at me with a warm smile and whispered," good morning beautiful." I smiled at him as he took my hand to help me to my feet. He looked at me and smiled. With him I was so much ready for the future. He got down on one knee in front of me and pulled out a black felt box out of his robe. I smiled as he took my hand. " Kayla when I met you I knew you needed saving. I knew you needed someone to be there for you on all the good and bad days. I wanted to be that for you and your daughter. I went to go visit Colton and asked him if it was okay. And I'm sure he said yes because I finally had enough courage to ask you will you marry me?" I broke down in tears when he mentioned Colton and asking him. I'm so glad he included him in it. That meant everything to me. " yes a million times yes." He wrapped me in his arm and spun me around the living room I was so happy. I've always this would be me and Colton but I guess things change for the better sometimes.
As the day went on I was planning out on how I was going to tell my mom. She was the one who was constantly talking about me moving on. But now that I've finally done it I'm not sure how she will react to it. Because I'm now engaged to my best friend. And we're raising our two kids together and trying to make it in life. I mean it ain't always easy but I'll try to get there. It was beginning to storm really bad and I had just out Gage down for a nap. He seemed so restless because of the storm. I was in the kitchen cooking lunch. Alex was at work and he was really busy there. I was about to head to my room to clean up a little bit when I heard a pounding on the door. It was so loud it made me jump in fear. I knew I had a baby boy in the back sleeping so I grabbed a knife as I heard the pounding keep going. When I opened the door I screamed to see Colton. He was so beaten up looking and shaking. I stepped back and yelled," get away I don't believe this!" He stepped towards me and whispered," I'm home." I heard my son crying for me. Colton looked at me and said is," is that our daughter?" I rolled my eyes and replied," my son my fiancé son. I'll call the police to help you." As the police came and flooded my house everyone was in about the same shock I was. We seen a dead man walking today. Colton has been dead for almost six years. And now the day after I get engaged he shows up out of nowhere. No answers how do this happen? It don't happen actually it is impossible. I'm so confused.
