22 years of Singleness

Chapter 11

Silence.

Silence was our only company. The steam coming from the coffee mugs in front of us, slowly vanishing in the air was my only distraction. Bernard was seated in one of the couches while I was seated in front of him.

He did not say a word, even though he was the one who said we needed to talk.

I really wanted to drink my coffee and yet I stood immobile, afraid that if I move he would start talking and I was so not prepared for that. 

I felt his gaze on me and I immediately knew he was about to speak.

"Well. This is a bit distressing" he said scratching his neck something that always make him look like a little boy caught doing something bad. "Can you tell me how I ended up sleeping in your bed?"

I smiled.

"You were drugged last night" I said plainly reaching out to take my coffee mug.

"Drugged? You mean like drugged drugged? Or drugged drugged?"

I almost spilled my coffee. Is there another definition for the Word drugged and its meaning?

"Is there another way to be drugged?" I said confused raising one of my eyebrows.

"Sorry, it's just that it doesn't make any sense, Care to explain how I ended up drugged? "He took a sip from the coffee mug and I heard him sigh in delight.

I laughed loudly.

"Where did buy this coffee? Taste like heaven..." he said amazed.

              "It is called Santo Domingo coffee, I brought it from my country"

I felt a little bit strange talking about something so common with Bernard, he is not open at all and remembering all the ''great conversations'' we had before, this is  like something out of this world.

"About how you got drugged hmmm "- I coughed a bit tensed. " You accidentally drank from the wrong cup, a man invited Bella and I some drinks and one of those drinks had GHB and you drank it.After that let's just say you were really dizzy and weren't  that fine."

"How did you know the type of drug they use?" he asked , looking  directly at me .

Here we go again with our main topic 'TRUST'

             "With this" I rose my hand.

"With your hands?" he sounded jumbled.

"Well in fact it was with my nails, Bella painted my nail with a special nail polish that could detect drugs mixed on drinks."

"Bella? The ginger girl right?"

"Yes" I smiled shyly."

"Ok, so I bet Matt left me hanging for a woman and you were too kind to take me with you." he said staring at me .

"Well ,that's exactly what happened." I was not lying because Bella and Matt left us hanging.

"Did I do anything wrong? Did I say something I should be ashamed right now?" I was shocked when I saw him smiling widely, his perfect teeth were as white as snow.

"No, you were just throwing up. "I said plainly, trying to hide the effect of his smile on me.

I took the last sip from my coffee mug and put it on the table in front of us. The silence fell on the room again and my eyes wandered over the features of my partner one more time, he was looking out the big city through the little window of my apartment, so I was not scared to be discovered. His chest was covered with well-defined muscles and when my eyes started going down I slapped myself internally for going to places I could not go. I went up an I ploddingly stopped when I reach his lips, meaty and pink and that reminded me how closed they were ten minutes ago, when I decided to finish my trip to marvellous land I found him looking at me with  a smirk on his face and I knew he saw me, I blushed furiously and I looked down ashamed.

"I'm sorry."

"Excuse me? "I said looking up.

"I'm sorry..Monserrat." he kept looking at me but this time I saw something different in his gaze, something I could not identify and adding the fact that Hearing him calling me by my name made me feel, I don't even know how to express how I felt.

"You don't need to apologize, it was not your fault. It was an accident-".I was about to talk again but he interrupted me.

"I'm not talking about that "He scratched his neck again and I realized he always does that when he is nervous. "I've been behaving like a kid since your started working with me and I'm apologizing for that., I  was not pleased with the idea of having  a  partner but no for the reasons you think but for others I can't share with you right now. I'm so deeply  sorry for everything I've put you through and I promise I will try to make it up to you from now on, I will ask you to be a little bit patient  with me. I'm going through a lot of things right now but you are not the one to blame and I'm ashamed of my behaviour this past weeks."

I did not know what to say, I was completely shocked; of all the thing I expected him to do or talk today for sure this was not on top of the list.

"It's okay, I forgive you, I know sometimes we do things we don't want to and I know life can be tough but I just want you to treat me like your equal, an intelligent woman who worked hard to make her dreams come true, this past week's I've felt useless and powerless even though I know my worth, so please let's work as partners but real partners."

"Again sorry, it was not my intention to put you through all that and again from now on we will work as one, Matt, you and I."

I smiled widely, feeling like a big weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

"Now just in case, do you have a spare pair of man clothes and a toothbrush because I feel so dirty right now? And some painkillers?"

"I sleep with man clothes so I think you can borrow one of my Pjs and I know somewhere in my bathroom there is a new toothbrush I just need to look for it."I said standing up from the couch. "About those pain killers I have some, you go to the bathroom and I go to my room to find some clothes for you" I answered shyly.

He started walking to my room but the doorbell rang, he stopped and looked at me asking a silent question that I got no answer for because I was not expecting any visitors today. I went to open the door and I saw him following me but respecting my personal space. I opened the door and two lonely figures were standing in the other side, a very happy Bella and an all smile and unicorns Matt.

"I told you they had morning sex Matt! "

My mouth dropped and for sure I was blushing like a tomato, I need to find better friends.