The shit I can't say

Theres This Boy....

There's this boy.....and no I won't say his name. He's 16 now, I called to wish him happy birthday on his birthday and I didn't get an answer.....that's alright I'll just text him. I texted him and like an hour later I get a response. Very lovely response.....
There's this boy that I love. And yes I do love him. I worry that he doesn't feel the same but in the back of my mind I think he does. He's sweet, he's handsome, he's animal loving, he's a nerd, he's everything I've ever wanted.....if the boy ever finds this.....I love you...a lottle.....it's like a little but a lot. When I hear from you my heart flutters and I can't stop smiling but when I don't I worry. I worry things have changed between us and I worry that you have stopped caring or you found someone better. I need to stop worrying about these things but I can't. Maybe someday I will but as for now I will worry and I will wait. I will wait for my chance with you again because I can't give up on you even if I try. This one boy causes so much to happen. You know how they say they will get butterflies in their stomach around someone they like.....well this one boy gives me the whole god damn zoo.....and I don't know what that means but it has to be more than just a crush....right? There's this boy that I love....