The shit I can't say

That One....

There's this other boy....you can't call it love because it's not. It's just a curiosity crush case. He's strange but he's cute. He's a bit demented but he makes me laugh and smile.....he's younger than me. He's 12. My grandma says I will forget about him by the time I hit high school next year. Which isn't true but in a way it is. This curiosity crush case will be over by next year....I'll have moved on. I'll still think about him but I won't have a crush on him. I'll still talk to him but I won't get the same butterflies in my stomach as I do now. That one boy who is younger than me
He has caused such an impact in my life I don't know how I'll be over him
But I know one day I will be and I'll be free
He's always going to be that one boy that could've been
He's always going to be that one that gave me butterflies with just a simple text
But that's all it was....it was only butterflies. Nothing more
He's that one boy that I wish could've been more but never will be.....
He's that one boy that I'm giving up on because he deserves better. He deserves the one he loves which doesn't happen to be me