Tear Stained

A Letter From Mocha

I love you
There I said it but even after I say it you still don't hear me. You see me but never really looked at me. You look into my eyes but don't see my soul. So what's the point of the back and forth between the two of us. Why can't we be more than stolen glances, secret kisses, and shameful sex. I am more than what my body can offer but you seem to couldn't careless. So I act careless and just go with it. I'm ashamed of the way I let you treat me. I'm asking for more but settling for less. I'm pathetic and ashamed of myself.  I deserve more but to keep you close I've done what you asked. But I'm driving the stake through my own heart and watching it bleed for you. There won't ever be an us I'm aware of that now. Whatever you were looking for couldn't be found in me. So to save me from myself I'm going to let you go and find your love. But before you go I want to let you know I dreamt many nights of how our love would. Hoped and prayed that you would see how I longed for you to be mine but you didn't. Now our time has come to an end and I'm ready to let you go but not ready to say goodbye.