Semi-Automatic (Tyler)

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by joshlerislyf3

by joshlerislyf3

Where the fuck is Josh?? I had lunch with him half an hour ago but now he's nowhere to be seen. I searched our house and even went to the forest, why wouldn't he tell me where he is? I dial his number and hold the phone against my ear. I suddenly hear a familiar ringtone coming from Josh's room. I walk in to see his phone on his bedside table. Why would he leave his phone? I try to clear my head by grabbing my ukulele and started strumming an F#m chord followed by A major. I repeat this pattern, changed chords every bar.

{F#m} Night falls
{A Major} With gravity
The {F#m} earth turns
From {A Major} sanity
Taking {D Major} my on-
Ly friend {A Major} I know
He {Cm} leaves a lot
His {D Major} name is hope
I'm {A Major} nev-

I kneel on the ground, putting my ukulele beside me, breathing heavily and I clasp my hands over my ears. I close my eyes and vividly see white. Just empty white. A shadow approaches and a woman with blonde hair smiles at me. "Hey Tyler, how are you feeling?"
No. Please no. I don't want to see this again, please stop it. "Fine"
"Okay Tyler, we're going to keep you here for a while just to make sure you don't... Try anything again."
My head spins violently and I shake my head to try and wake myself from this flashback. Stop. I don't want to see this. The woman leaves the room as Josh enters. "Tyler," he says, "Please talk to me about these kinds of things. What did you do anyway? They won't tell me anything except 'he's in a dark place'. Do you want to talk about it? You look like-"
I roll up my sleeves and he sees deep scars along my veins. He clasps his face in his hands and I swear his eyes were like faucets. He holds me in his arms and we soak each other's shoulders with tears. I shake my head and can finally focus on the present. I haven't had a flashback in a while and let me tell you, it is scary as hell. It's so hard to stop seeing it as well, so hard to just block it out. I hear a knock on the door and rush down the stairs. I hold my hand on the doorknob and hesitate before opening it.

Author note: Sorry if the chords for Semi-Automatic are wrong, I didn't have a musical instrument with me so I was kind of just guessing by ear :/
So the flashback itself isn't based off of my experiences however I have had flashbacks before and it is fucking scary. Sometimes they're triggered but sometimes they just come out of nowhere.