XXXtentacion || My Love 🥀

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Still secret pov

Man tht shit made me wet ash but it was all a dam day dream wtf I walk out the bathroom Jahseh stare at me

Me:Wha lol

He look back at the tv

Me:Why u wanted me to stay
J:Have someone to talk to
Me:Am I'm going to do most of the talking like always

He shook his head no

Me:Wha u wanna talk about
J:Don't matter
Me:Really Jahseh well what's ur favorite food
J:Carb
Me:Mine shrimp wha u allergic to
J:Nun
Me:Same what's ur nickname
J:X
Me:Cool but it's Jah pooh

He look at me then look back at his fingers

Me:How old are and when ur birthday
J:18 and 01/23 (y'all fuvkin happy? suck a dick now)
Me:3 months ago ok lol I'm 17 and my birthday was last week um what are u in to
J:Music
Me:Oh I like modeling but how many times u had sex
J:Few
Me:Only once for me

I look down at my thighs seeing the faded cuts on me and the memories came in my head

J:Story
Me:Wym
J:How u had sex how was it
Me:Horrible cuz I was r-rape by my uncle

I look down at my legs messing with the cuts I put the covers over them i felt Jahseh hand wipe a tear I didn't know I was crying at all he hug me tight I hug him back.

Me:He use to come touch on me and one night he did it when my mom was working and it was horrible

The memories fluid my head

J:U ok
Me:Yea

He stare at me

Me:Sorry I just feel like shit I can't believe I let him do tht he over power me I felt dead and everything
J:U don't have to worry about shit like tht no more

I smile and he smile back

Me:Um there's a Carnival going on tomorrow night um do u wanna um go
J:Sure
Me:Really
J:Yea

I smile

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Next Day
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I woke up in Jahseh bed by myself then he came out the bathroom I smile he came kiss me tht was the first time he actually kiss me first even though Thts our second time kissing but I look at my phone seeing I had a appointment for my hair cuz I hate flat ironing my hair but I got ready and left glade I took my shower before so my hair won't puff out after I get it done but I paid $100 everytime I get my hair done cuz it stay bone straight for a week but after tht I left and went home and realized it was 5pm I been there for some hours I got dress (Outfit in the mm) I took my brown heels off and put the black ones on they was the exact same pair but I thought black looked better than brown with the outfit but I look at my nails seeing the look fresh cuz I had them matte black I thought it was cute lol but I had on my gold necklace around my neck I don't like charms on my necklace it a simple small gold necklace I spray my temptation perfume on me and lotion I put my lip gloss on tht I got from VS it was clearish pinkish but look clear on my lips I thought I was real cute asf I put my mascara on and a little tiny highlight and my eyebrows was the boom dot com I took pictures and a knock was on my door open it and it was Jahseh he had on black crispy A1s high top all black and black jeans with a black Gucci belt and a black shirt he looked good asf he had his ice on his neck and wrist I never thought his dreads was up and some was in his face but he still looked delicious asf man he smile showing his bottoms

Me:Boy u look good

He smile even more he handed me black roses I laugh

Me:How tf u get real black roses
J:Tht rose shop down there it's was 100 for 24 black rose and I got them

I smile and kiss Jahseh cheek

Me:Come take pictures with me

We stood in front of my body mirror and I was standing in front of him and he had his hand on my waist and I had the roses in one hand and taking the picture we both was looking at my phone we was cute asf I put "🖤" and put it on my story we took a few more but I didn't post them I save the pictures and sent them to Jahseh cuz he wanted them as we walk down the stairs he was recording me I had one of his hand I turn around and smile

J:Damm babbbyy

I laugh and then I knew he ended it cuz the flash went off I knew he post it cuz I saw it and it was perfect our hands was in it showing his icy wrist and my looking delicious my hair was close to the middle of my black it was flat like weave I thought I was real cute my mom took a picture of us and so did his they was extra but we left and went out to eat ppl was looking at us but mostly at Jahseh hair it was like Jahseh was all smiles tonight after dinner we got in the car and I was rolling a blunt like I said from the jump only roll golden blunts and Thts wha I was rolling he took a picture of me and videos when I lit it and we smoke it I took pictures of us cuz this was the night to get pictures with him since he was all smiles and laugh he was so high it was cute course we smoke like 4 blunts before leaving the parking lot and I was still rolling some as he pull off we got to the carnival and had a ball he won me a hug teddy bear of course it was black but I love it he took a picture of me with the bear I post it on my snap we got on rides we smoke a blunt on the Ferris wheel 🎡 and talk so much it spin for about 30 minutes I kiss Jahseh

J:I got something for u idk if ur a ring girl but ur my princess

He gave me a pandora box and it was a princess ring with a tiny custom black diamond and the rest was regular diamonds I put it on my finger I hug Jahseh and kiss him

Me:Jah pooh thank u

I kept kissing him he full my heart with joy I haven't had fun like this in forever he was laughing cuz I was still kissing him I took a picture of me about to kiss him with my hand on the side of his face showing the ring on my finger "💍🖤" I save it and post it on snap so many ppl kept snapping me and Jahseh phone was going the same thing after he post the same picture after I sent it to him we left after doing hella shit and I was tired ash we got in the car I took a picture of me holding his hand it show his tattoos and watch and show my ring my nails was cute too I save tht and sent it to him he pull up to a store and put gas in the car then we left from the store I was falling to sleep we had a hour ride home