Feelings

The Give Up

I'm so sick of this feeling i have inside. All i ever get in life is pain. I want it to stop so bad. Everyone hates me and i don't know why and i just. I just want to kill myself. honestly I just want to jump off a cliff, slit my wrists, hang myself, swallow a bottle of pills. anytime to make this stop. i'm so tired of trying to be okay trying to smile when all i ever wanna do is cry. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm sick of having to told in my sobs at night or having to continuously wear long sleeves year round. I'm sick of everyone i ever love leaving me, or just killing themselves. I'm sick, I'm tired, no actually i'm fucking exhausted. I hate how when it rains i'm crying already, i hate how i can't fully enjoy myself in social events because i know everyone there ethier hates me or will hate me. I just want to end it but i'm to much of a pussy. which makes me want to more