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cruel.

i closed my eyes as i felt the pain caused by the injection, i tried to breathe normally because i know my anxiety is kicking in again.

"breathe sky, come on." i nodded at lena who is beside me, holding my hand and making sure i'm fine.

i heaved a sigh as i felt myself calm down already, the doctor gave me advices as usual and left after that.

before, it would take me hours to calm myself but as i'm used to it already, it's not that hard anymore.

"do you want something? i'll buy you your favorite strawberry oatmeal if you want." i smiled at lena who's trying her best to make me feel okay.

that's what i love about lena, i treat her as my older sister already. whenever she feels i want something and it's not harmful for me, she'll get it no matter what.

but the thing is, today feels different.

usually after my daily injection test, i would request for a lot of food that i love like strawberry oatmeal, fruits and such.

"tell me sky, what do you want?" lena, who's smiling at me and waiting for my answer.

i bit my lip before finally speaking.

"i want to see him, lena. let's visit the boy." i stated.

i felt my heart skip a beat after i saw the paper posted in your room. there, i saw your name. i can finally know your name! it makes me so happy.

august park.

and then again, i felt a thump on my heart. i gasped as i thought i'm having a heart attack but no.

it feels different; very different.

for the first time ever, i smiled as i put my hand on my chest trying to feel my heart.

maybe lena was right, i admire you already.

i like you.

and maybe behind that cruel thing you did, there is a reason.