Unwanted |Demi Lovato & Maddie De La Garza|

3 - First Time With A Blade

Demi's Pov.

I didn't understand,Maddie loves bacon. Maybe she just wasn't that hungry,plus,she ate a cheeseburger. Those things really fill people. All I know is that I need to stay positive about all of this. "So Demi...." One of my crew members said, making me snap out of my thoughts. "Yeah?" I looked at him, "Are you done?" "With what?". He pointed to the food, "Are you done with your food?" he asked, "Oh yes..I'm gonna go to my dressing room now...um..bye..see y'all later." I cleaned up and went to my dressing room. Maddie got her own new dressing room yesterday,so she doesn't share it with me anymore,sad. She's now a star.

I got out my phone and logged onto Twitter. I looked at Maddie's tweet. I just stared at it. Hate? What hate? What kind of person would hate such a sweet innocent young girl like Maddie?

I sighed and tweeted:

'Fuck all of you, Maddie's just a cute little girl, how dare you be so rude? No wonder why our generation is so depressed! stop hating and show some love! @Maddielovesyou1 don't you listen to them, they're just jealous freaks.'

I hope that will make her smile,or something. Maddie doesn't deserve this, she's only twelve. I don't want her to go where I went,it's horrible. I really hope she won't do anything to herself, if she does, I will...just..break down. I love the girl to pieces,thinking about this really gets me worried.

Maddie's Pov.

I shut down my phone and looked around my new dressing room. So much clothes. I really want to try them on. I need go ask Demi if I can,but how am I supposed to go across the hall without makeup? I'll look ugly. Slowly, I sat down on my chair and started applying moisturizer. After that, I put on some concealer. Then I added the eyeliner,some eyeshadow,mascara,pink blush,lipstick,then two layers of lip gloss. Glossy.

Now I can go ask Demi without looking like a whale. Oh wait,Maddie,you're too fat to look at. What should I do? I looked over the counter and saw weight-loss pills. Why were they there? Are the Demi's? I put a few in my mouth and swallowed it,hoping it could make me skinny soon. After two hours, I couldn't wait any longer. It was killing me. I had to ask Demi. But I look like a fat whale. Oh fuck my life.

I guess she'll have to see me..fatty Maddie. Yeah,that's what they called me back in school. It feels....terrible.

I sucked in my stomach and thrusted out my hips a little, so it would look like I have a thigh gap. I really want one of those,all of them 'pretty girls' have it.

I knocked on Demi's dressing room door,she answered it. "Oh hey, Maddie. What's up? Do you need something?" she looked confused. Oh great, I knew it. She doesn't want me here. I must look so bad that she doesn't want to be seen with me, she quickly looked at my face, "Maddie? Why are you wearing so much makeup?" she said, "I was just messing around with my stuff." I lied. I really needed the makeup to look decent. Actually, even with the makeup I look nowhere near decent.

"So what do you need?" she asked me, "I wanted to know if I could try on some of the clothes." I fake smiled, "Of course,Madison. You don't need to ask me that. They're all your clothes. Go ahead..fiddle with them." Demi giggled.

"Alright..I'll see you later,Dem Dem." I walked back to my dressing room and started trying on the clothes. They were super big,I felt so fat. Those voices came into my mind.

"Fatty Maddie, Fatty Maddie."

"go cut yourself like your sister,deep."

I couldn't take it anymore, I grabbed my pencil sharpener, hid it on my pocket and ran to the bathroom. As soon as I got there, I used a screw to make the blade fall out. I quickly picked up the blade. Quietly, I slid the blade across my wrist.

Shit, that hurts.

I regretted it right after. I washed it off and threw the blade away. I am never gonna do that again, it hurts too much.

Someone knocked on the bathroom door, "Maddie, it's Demi. The show is about to begin. Come quick." She told me, I put all the stuff away and ran back to the dressing room,getting my clothes on.

As I walked out to the stage,Demi was already talking about me. "Please welcome......my wonderful talented little sister....Maddie De La Garza!" she yelled as the crowd screamed. I walked out on stage, sang the three songs with her. When we finished, Marissa took me to the hotel,where I fell asleep at the first second.