MY very own child

Chapter two

I woke up cuddling with Usagi-san, who had his arms wrapped tightly around me. It felt nice being loved and to love in return. We have been together for five years now and I was still a bit shy when we became intimate but not so much anymore. I have grown into a fine young man even if I am still shorter then Usagi-san. Akihiko stirred and was waking up. I quickly pretended to still be asleep as to not wake up the demon inside Usagi-san. It was never a good thing if Usagi woke up before he was ready. "Good morning." He croaked out, his voice broken by sleep. I slowly opened my eyes looking up at him. "Morning." I answered turning my head up at him. "How did you sleep?" Akihiko asked when he was finally awake. "Hmm. Good I guess." I answered nonchalantly. Or at least tried to. "What did you dream about this time?" Akihiko asked. I cursed him in my head. Why can he always see right through me. I tried thinking of answer to give him but quickly decided I would just tell him the truth. "I dreamed about our future." I said not going into detail. "And" Akihiko asked again urging me to go on. "Well you and I kind of ... uh you know." I said really not wanting to tell him but I already knew he wouldn't be satisfied with my answer. "No I don't know, why don't you tell me exactly what you dreamed of?" Akihiko said sitting up in bed to look at me. "IdreamedyouandIhaveachildofourownandthatwewerereallyhappyaboutittoo." I said in one breath (I dreamed you and I have a child of our own and that we were really happy about it too) then looking down at my hands. "Misaki listen. I know you really want a child but do you think that is the right thing for us. I mean you are just out of college and just started working." Akihiko asked. "I know it would be hard on me but look at yourself. You always said I didn't have to work because you can provide for us. Now that I also work you should be able to provide for a family. I just really want to be a family with you." I said. Akihiko sighed and then looked away from me. We have had this conversation for a while now but neither of us wanted to give in. We both wanted something really bad but neither was willing to let the other have it. Then suddenly Akihiko turned to me and sighed again. I knew he was thinking about it but before I could say anything to persuade him he started talking. "If I would say yes, and I am not saying that now, what do you think would happen?" Akihiko asked. I looked at Usagi-san contemplating his question. "Well for starters I would be very happy with you." I said. Usagi shook his head. "That is not what I meant. I mean what would happen to us?" He clarified. "Huh what would happen to us? I think we would be a loving family and have a great time together." I said not understanding where this was going. "Oh, so you don't think there will be broken nights, screaming babies and no minute to rest?" Usagi-san asked leaning his head on his hand. I cocked my head to the side thinking about what he said. "Well there will be some of that but it will be worth it. Just ask Takahiro." I said still trying to convince him. "Oh but I have talked to Takahiro about this and he told me all about parenthood and the things he has to do to make ends meet. And to be honest I really don't think I want that. The worst part is I have to share you!" Usagi said raising his voice a little. I looked at my hands feeling sadness overwhelm me and making my eyes tear up. "I'm sorry Usagi-san. I know I have been very selfish lately but I have never asked you for anything and this is something I really want. That is also the reason why I still have the womb in my stomach. I kept taking the hormones to keep it and even after they ran out I didn't want to take it out. Can't you see how much I want this." I said making sure to look up at him just as my tears started rolling down. Usagi quickly put his arms around me. "Oh Misaki, off course I can see that but think about it do I even qualify to be a parent. You say it to me all the time I am a child in a grown up's body. How can I take care of a child if I am still a child myself." He said. I sighed and wiped at my eyes angrily. "I know I have said that but that was before I went through the pregnancy with my nephews. Look at what you have done in that time. I couldn't ask for a better caretaker than you." I said hugging him close. "But that is something entirely different than taking care of a child."
"You know you don't have to do that alone. I will be right here to help you when you need it." I said hope lacing my voice. We never have gotten this far on the subject. I started to feel a slight flame of hope ignite inside me. Usagi-san sighed again then closed his eyes. When he opened them again he watched my hopeful face. "Alright." was all he said. My face changed into that of confusement. "What?" I asked hoping he would give me a clearer answer. "Alright, let's give it a shot." Usagi said. My eyes grew as wide as dinner plates at his words. "Are you serious? Do you really mean it?" I almost couldn't contain my happiness but I didn't want to misunderstand him. "Yes I am very serious and I mean it when I say let's try parenthood together." Usagi smiled as my face lit up and the tears started rolling down again only this time it were happy tears. I jumped on Usagi smothering him in kisses and thank you's until he fell back on the bed. "There is only one thing that worries me now." Akihiko said. I looked at him questionably. "Why did you stop taking the hormones? It's dangerous, what if your body rejected the womb." He asked looking worried and also a bit irritated. "Uh. well the doctor didn't want to prescribe me any more hormones, she said it was time I let the womb be removed. I didn't want that so I just waited if something happened." I said. Akihiko shook his head. "After the weekend you are going to see a doctor about this." he said. I nodded and then got of him. "alright but right now it's time for breakfast." I said walking over to the door making sure I swayed my hips seductively. I looked over my shoulder to see Akihiko smirking at me. Oh no that never was a good sign. Maybe I teased him a bit to much. I quickly scampered out of the room to make breakfast.

Alright folks I'm ending it here. I hope it wasn't to long. I just need to make sure the detail are in order for the story to be just right. Please let me know what you think and till next time.

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