Left Behind

Chapter 4

Yuri watched ad Victor made his way towards him, he was tense as he watched the man with silver hair make his way through his parent's banquet hall. Yuri stepped back not knowing what to do in this case unable to think, unable to breathe.

"Yuri...can we talk?" Yuri gave one look towards him before he once again took off towards his room, slamming the door shut behind him.

"Yuri let me in! Please!"

"No!" Yuri shook his head and held the door shut, he didn't know why Victor was here or what he wanted, and it scared him.

"Alright Yuri we don't have to face one another I'll talk and you listen alright? Yuri shuffled a bit in his room before he finally spoke up.

"A-alright...." Victor let out a sigh of relief before he took a deep breath and began to speak to Yuri.

"Yuri I am sorry I left you there on the beach...I heard what you said before I left...I know that you apologized Yuri. I am so sorry I left you there I was just so upset and angry with you at the time I didn't even stop to think about what I was doing, and for that, I am sorry Yuri I should have never left you without saying goodbye. I wasn't thinking about how that might make you feel Yuri and that was incredibly selfish of me. I am sorry Yuri please forgive me!"

Yuri didn't know what to think, or even what to say. All this time, Victor had been feeling guilty as well, but for some reason, a part of him felt that all the things that had happened between the two of them were his fault. All of it had to be his fault. After all he was the one who had said such hurtful things to Victor, that caused him to be so upset. It was all his fault.

"No Victor...everything that happened...it was because of me...if....if I would have never said those things to you this....would have never happened....it is all my fault. I don't deserve you....." The tears were streaming down Yuri's face once again, the voices in his head telling him how it was all his fault. He didn't deserve Victor, and he never would.

Yuri's hand on the handle faltered, and he felt the door slide open, and his head whipped around to see Victor stepping into his room. He steeped back away from him, the tears still streaming down his face, he had to get away from Victor. Yuri couldn't face him like this he was an absolute wreck, he didn't want Victor to see him like this ever but now, now he was standing in front to him.

"Yuri...." Yuri tried to move away from Victor, but soon Victor had his arms wrapped around him holding him close. "Yuri I am so sorry....I was so upset....because I love you, and there you were being so upset and I couldn't do a single thing to help you....I am a horrible person......"

Yuri's eyes widened , and he tried to break free from Victor's grasp.
"You're lying! you can't love me! I don't deserve you! You should hate me for the awful things I said to you!" He cried out trying once again to break free from his grasp on him, but Victor held him tightly and closed the door behind him.
"Yuri I love you I do! So please don't say that you're not worthy of my love for you. I love you so much..." Yuri began to sink to the floor and Victor followed him down still holding him in his arms tightly rubbing soothing patterns on Yuri's back with his fingers.

"I love you Yuri please believe me." Yuri sobbed into Victor's chest. "We both said things that we didn't mean that day, but Yura please believe me that I did not mean any hurtful thing I said. I truly love you, no matter what you or I said that day." Victor continued to say soft things into his ear about how much he loved him, and he did this until Yuri finally calmed down, and to Victor's surprise he whispered.

"I love you too...."