Left Behind

Chapter 1

"The winner of the Hot Springs on ice is Yuri Plisetsky! Congratulations Yuri! Do you have anything you would like to say to our viewers at home?"

Yuri sat staring at the floor. He had messed up, big time, and there was no coming back from this moment. He was going to be left behind by Victor. After all, Yurio had won fair, and square and his request was for Victor to come back to Russia and be his coach. Yuri didn't think that he would be able to recover from this loss.

He had no coach now, no one to help him choreograph his free program, no one to offer support and creative criticism, tell him what he was doing wrong, he had nothing. He looked up at the two smiling faces on the podium, he stood to the side, watching as everyone cheered.

'I let all of them down again. I worked so hard, only to let everyone down again, and now Victor will go back to Russia. This is all my fault if only I wasn't such a failure! If only I could not let my anxiety do this to me if only I could make them proud of me instead of always disappointed.' He could feel the tears starting to build up in his eyes, he needed to escape.

He took one last look at Victor before he ran, he needed to leave the rink all together, and he needed to do so now. He ran towards the ocean, it was still early spring so he knew that no one would be there, he sat on a rock that jutted out of the sand. He let the tears flow freely now, knowing that no one would disturb him here. Victor was probably already on his way to the airport with Yurio anyways, and besides, why would he come and look for Yuri, he was just the loser of the competition. Someone who didn't even make it to world's last year, what did it matter if he just disappeared, after all, Yurio was the one with all the talent.

He once again felt the hot tears building in his eyes only this time he did not hold them back, he allowed them to flow freely from his eyes. He didn't want Victor to go, he didn't want to give up his dream either, but he knew that both of these things were bound to happen since Victor was leaving. He knew that everybody was too preoccupied with Yurio's win to come looking for him, or even notice that he was gone.
He placed his head on his knees, and some part of him knew that this was the end of his career the end of his dream. The bitter taste of defeat was all that he had left to remind him of his dream. The dream he was now sure would never come true.

He had let everyone down, they all had helped him so much yet all he did was let them down. He was just a disappointment to everyone. To Yuuko, Nishigori, Minako, and even Victor. They had all worked so hard to help him, yet all he did was fail them once again.

"Yuri!" Yuri could hear his name being called, but he paid no mind to it and just ignored the sound of the voice coming towards him. He didn't want to be near anyone right now, and he just wanted to be alone.

"Yuri!There you are I have been looking for you! Why did you leave all of a sudden?" Yuri turned slightly to see none other than Victor standing behind him. Yuri knew that his face was a mess right now, and seeing Victor here he felt as if his entire world was standing still, why was Victor here? Why did he come to find him? Shouldn't he be with Yurio?

Yuri just turned away from Victor tears still streaming down his face, he didn't want Victor to see him like this. He didn't want Victor to see how weak he was.

"Victor...aren't you supposed to be with Yurio?" He said sniffling, he hated when he was like this, and he most certainly didn't want Victor to see him like this.

"Yuri I was worried about you, you just disappeared after the announcement. Yuri your performance was beautiful, but there was something missing and it would have been the key to you winning. But I still believe that you will be able to make it to the Grand Prix Final without me as your coach! You can come to Russia, and learn under Yakov!" Victor said this with a smile, and Yuri knew that he was just trying to comfort Yuri at this point, however, it wasn't working.

"Victor... I can't...I can't disappoint everyone again..."
"What do you mean Yuri?"
"Victor, I'm...I'm going to stay here in Japan..."

"That's okay Yuri! I am sure that we can find you a great coach here in Japan! You must want to stay close to your family after all you were gone for five years!" Yuri shook his head, Victor didn't understand what he was saying at all.

"Victor...I am going to retire...I disappointed everyone again today...I disappointed you today...I don't want to let everyone down again so...I am just going to retire Victor...I'm sorry..."

"Yuri you didn't disappoint anyone today! Is that what you think you did? You were, and have always been amazing Yuri! Just because you have had a losing streak doesn't mean you can't have a winning streak as well! You are only twenty-three Yuri, you still have time to win yourself a gold medal! We can find you a different coach, and you will flourish I am sure of it!"

"Victor please just go back to Yurio...he has always had more potential than me...and he always will. It only makes sense that the legend should be the coach of the new rising star of Russia...instead of me some overweight idiot like me..."

"Yuri you're not-"

"JUST GO BACK TO YURIO VICTOR! GO BACK TO RUSSIA!" Yuri snapped at Victor, and as soon as he had said it he immediately regretted it. Victor's blue eyes shone with pain that had come from those words. But he couldn't take back those words no matter how he wished he could.

He watched as Victor stood up, and turned his back to Yuri, his silver hair fluttering softly in the breeze as he kept his head bowed.

"Fine, if that is what you want Yuri I will go back to Yurio, and then we will be on the first flight out of Japan...I will have some movers come get my stuff so don't concern yourself with it Yuri...goodbye." Yuri watched as he began to walk away from him, leaving him behind on the cold beach, but before he left Yuri spoke up, knowing that he should still be within an earshot.

"Victor...I am sorry, please come back...Victor please...please don't leave me alone...I am sorry please come back...please...I...I didn't mean it..." He said those words over, and over but even if Victor heard him he made no move to come back to him, and it was clear that Victor was upset with him.

He tried saying it a little louder but to no avail. It was clear that he had been left behind on the beach by himself, and Victor wasn't coming back for him.