Her Sacrifice

As We Are

We are closer than ever now. ( true [her])Every day with her is an adventure and a journey on the road to knowing myself better.( 😁[her])

We started with what society taught us was ideal. Hand in hand, equal, fifty fifty. Everything was discussed, debated and agreed upon. It was great. 

Every day we were together I learned more about her. Every second of the day I fell deeper in love with her. 
( 😘 [her])
From the loving, non jealous, no confrontational, lay down and let her have her way kind of guy that everyone expected me to be,  I have turned into a controlling, possessive and jealous Master that loves her more than life, treats her like a queen, and punishes her as a child when she misbehaves. ( Bad ass bf [her]). I do my best to spoil her in any way I can think of. She does the same for me. ( You spoil me too much [her] No such thing as spoiling you too much [him]) And now everything is better than it has ever been or could ever be. Instead of being  who and what everyone expects us to be,  we are ourselves. No apologies and no shame. Why should we be forced into what society sees as normal? Who says that it is normal for us too?

We often have tiny disagreements. I will say, "You are perfect!".  She answers,  "No I'm Not". I always come back with "Yes you are". Its like playing ping pong. We bat the ball back and forth a few times. Then I tell her, "In my eyes love, you will always be perfect."  End of discussion. She can't dispute that, no matter how hard she tries. The same with me saying she is beautiful, sexy, sweet etc. It's all part of the same game and we play it the same way. 

One day I was feeling jealous and more possessive than usual. "Grab a pen and head upstairs" I told her.( I was confused, but I didn't argue [her])(She knows better to argue with me when I'm in that mood[him])

"Okay, did I do something wrong Love?

"No babe, I want to mark you" was my answer, "make it a sharpie so it won't wash off"

Now she wears my mark. No one will ever see it, but it will be a constant reminder to her that she belongs to me and only me. Like tatting my name on her shoulder or hip, only a lot more personal. Not meant to be seen by anyone but her and me.

"Okay" she told me, "It's done, but I'm not sending you a picture" ( I guess that was one line [her])

"If I say you will, you will" I answered.  I got no reply. In my mind, that was the point when things evolved again. I don't know if she feels the same. ( I do [her]). After that there were no more rules, no more limits, lines or boundaries. I tell her what i want and she never tells me no. Unless we are playing which is a totally different thing. 

One of her later punishments was to use the phrase, "His, no limits".  That is the way it is now and the way it has been since. I have explored her lines, her limits, and her boundaries. I have never found anything she won't do for me.  Now you probably think that  I am a real asshole, but I am the same way about her. There is nothing I would not do, nothing I would not go through to keep her safe, secure, happy and spoiled. I would give my life for this girl. I am totally in love with her, she is my life and my world. (still the cutest little Baka in the world[her])

I enjoy choosing her clothes, giving her permission to go places and do things. I like giving her small tasks and ways to spend her time. I like setting boundary's for her and making her rules. I would pick out her perfume, body wash, deodorant and underwear if I could. 
(he's already done the perfume 😁, I let him [her])
Will we continue to evolve as a couple? That is certain. Will we keep on in the direction we are moving or will we revert back to what people think of as more "Conventional".  I don't know. The only thing we can count on in life is change. How that change happens or what direction it takes is up to her, isn't it? I mean, even though she lets me think I am the one in charge, we both know that its really her decision.   What ever happens, I will keep on loving her more every day, keep on treating her as if she is my queen, I will take care of her the best I can and put forth my best efforts to keep her safe, happy and secure. That's what love is all about, isn't it?

What does she get out of this kind of relationship? I don't know. I hope her list is at least as long as mine is. If you want to find out you will have to ask her about it or, if we are lucky, she will read and add her own comments throughout and let us know how she feels about things.  If we are very fortunate, she may add her own chapter. Check back often just in case. (all you have to do is ask politely[ her])

Please, we would like to hear your comments, your questions your thoughts and your ideas. Every comment helps us to decide whether or not to continue sharing our story. We want to hear from you.  ( ehhh...😁[her])