Sunny and Alex

Birthday

I left my house nine days ago to stay at Jenna's house for awhile. I had to get out of that house before my dad turned into a sociopath after my mother's death anniversary. Jenna doesn't mind that I stay at her place. She just said stay as long as you need to just let me know if you need anything. She said that nine days ago and she hasn't said anything else. I like that she doesn't talk much, it gives me some time to be alone. My birthday is in five days now. Alex said he has something big planned for me. I'm very excited for what it might me but scared because I don't want him to go all out for me. We have known each other for only a month and a half and I don't want to go too fast. I'm not really sure what Alex wants in this "relationship" and neither do I. I don't even know if I can even tell him about my father. I'm not sure what I would do if he found out about it, or that I had kept this secret from him and he finds out years later. This could ruin his life more than mine. I could tell him, but with this "relationship" I don't think I can tell him. I mean it's not like I don't trust him or anything. I just can't risk my father or myself. I get up from the kitchen table and walk over to the window. I stare out at the street watching the neighbor kids play soccer, kicking the ball into Jenna's yard. They all have smiles on their faces while they run and kick the ball. I can't help but think about how their family life is. All of them probably have their own TVs or cell phones. Watching Mickey Mouse or some shit like that on the big flat screen tv in the front living room. With perfectly wooden flooring, non-chipped paint, and big family pictures covering the walls. Just watching them makes me think how great everyone else is. Tears run down my face the more I focus on their soccer game. I feel numb while I stand there at the window. Everything is moving forward without a care in the world.

Alex walks with me to the park after school like always, but this time he has something there that will surprise me. I'm turning 18 today, well in four hours I am. Alex says he has something waiting for me at our usual hang out spot; the run down park. We are about a block away from the park when Alex stops me. I turn to face him with a confused look on my face.                     "Sunny, I want you to know that what I have planned at the park may make you cry your eyes out. So I prepared for the worst buying eight boxes of tissues. Then after we stay at the park for a while we can go to my place to have dinner. My mother said she would cook us a nice meal, whatever you would like. I suggested spaghetti, but she refused to take my opinion on your favorite dish." He says this all while smiling like crazy. All I can do is stand there confused as fuck thinking about what he has planned. Then he grabs my hand and we start walking to my birthday surprise. I smile more the closer we get to the park. Once we pass the big house at the corner I crane my neck to see a little clue of the surprise. I can see big balloons that have 18 written on them. I also see a bunch of people from school there waiting for us to arrive. At least all the people there aren't jerks like most of the school population. Some of the people I talk to in class and at lunch are waiting at the picnic tables. I look back at Alex as I sprint to see what else is up there on the little hill past the playground. I'm running and smiling letting happiness and excitement take over me. All the picnic tables are moved together in one big rectangle with a cake and presents covering every surface. Once everyone sees me they get up and stop talking. When I reach the tables I fall down on the ground and start to cry. No one has ever done anything like this for me in my life. I can't believe Alex did this all for me, this must have cost so much. I want him to take it all back, but I also want to enjoy all the love that surrounds me. Alex comes up and grabs me by the waist hoisting me up. I laugh and cry when he lifts me off my feet. After I stop crying we eat cake, open presents, and talk about every stupid thing I have done. I couldn't believe how much people at school knew about me. One girl even remembered when I braided her hair in one giant knot at a school field trip. See still has the hair that they had to cut because they couldn't get it untangled. I laughed and cried for hours in front of people that I never really knew before now. Best birthday ever!

At around eight I get dropped off at my house, Alex walks me up the front steps, I wave goodbye to him. I thanked him and his family for an amazing dinner. Then I walk in and close the door behind me. I stand staring at the door for a while, smiling about what had just happened. I eventually turn around and walk up the stairs to my bedroom. I open the door surprised to my father sitting there in a chair. He sits in the middle of my room facing the door with a beer bottle in his hand. He rests the bottle on his thigh gripping the neck of it. He slowly gets up from the chair walking toward me. He throws a brown sack at my feet telling me to look inside. I pick it up slowly and unravel the top to look inside. I see a fuzzy pink and black outfit at the bottom of the bag. I look up to see my father getting undressed. I pull out the outfit watching it hang by a string in between my fingertips. I really don't want to do this now, not after all the fun I had had today, but I know my father won't take no for an answer. I get undressed anyways and put it on. It barely covers anything on my body. My whole ass is showing, my boobs pop out of the top, and it is totally not my colors. A huge grin covers my father face once the whole outfit is put on.

I walk over to our usual spot on the floor. He had already laid out towels and blankets. I sit down with my legs pointed straight out in front of me. He leans over my back tracing his fingers down my arms. He starts to speak into my ear, first a whisper then he gets louder so I can hear better. "Today is the day sweetpea. Your 18th birthday and I wanted to plan something extra special for you. After work, I stopped by that new adult shop by Yorkton Road. I saw this and thought of my honeymoon with your mother. She wore something like this at this old hotel down in New Mexico. That was the best day of my life and the best sex. So for your 18th, I wanted to recreate the best day of my life to make it your best day. How does that sound, Eh? A great idea by your father don't ya think? Now let's get started." He keeps rubbing my arms back and forth while he talks. The thought of my mother doing something like this with my father feels like I'm being stabbed in the stomach. I can't think of her like that. I knew about my parents' honeymoon being in New Mexico, but this is way too much information. I could handle it if she was still alive and that he wasn't in the middle of raping me. When I get back to reality my father has already pushed me down on the floor, rolling on top of me, moving back and forth. He slips down his boxers the closer he is to climax. My father studies my body almost as if I was a history book. His eyes meet with mine when he gets closer to his climax. He can't see my anger or the hurt is has put on me. He can only see my mother's face, I can tell by the way he stares back. I break the stare to look out into the hallway. I had heard a creak from the staircase thinking, at first, that the house was just settling or the wind was getting high. Instead to just seeing a dirty colored cream wall I see Alex standing there with a shocked look on his face. I mouth the word no as he starts to walk toward us. He stops when my father turns his neck around to see what I was staring at so intently. Then he gets a very angry face on, I've only seen it a couple times. That was when I got home late and when I back talked to him in the third grade over a peanut butter sandwich.