The Change

Trees.

Even more trees.

That's what I see when I look out through the car window.

This new college better be fucking good or I'll do something as bad I did on the last one.

"Helena. We're here'' the driver says.

"Okay'' I reply and take another look through the window.

The campus is surprising me.

It's acctually beautiful and big. With all the big pines and shit.

''Do you want help with your bags Helena?'' the woman in the front seet asks me.

"Hell yes''

''Your driver, Max here, will carry them to your dorm when we go to the reception and search for your dorm room''

I step out of the car and the fresh air hits my face.

''Your dorm is over there'' the woman says and point to the second largest building.

"Okay'' I spit out.

"Doesn't it smell lovely here, Helena?'' the woman says.

Just to distroy her happiness I pull out my cigarettes, light one and blows out the smoke in her direction.

"Lovely'' I say with sarcasm in my voice.

She stops and starts to caugh and I just keep on walking with a smirk on my face.

We walk over to the biggest buildings and I can feel a few students who lays eyes on me.

''Hello'' the woman says friendly to the girl in the reception.

''Hello'' she smiles to the woman and then let her eyes fall on me.

The smile disappears.

"Hi'' I say and smile too much at her.

"Hello'' she says, trying to keep the friendly tone in her speech.

"Well, this is Helena Faith Morgan. She's the new student and we know which dorm house she have, just not which room'' the woman says.

"Oh, I see. Wait a minute'' the girl behind the desk says, and look at the computer and starts to scroll with the computer mouse.

''Room 19. You'll share it with two other girls. You want to know their names?''

''No'' I says as I turn around and starts to walk out of the building.

Which dorm did the woman say was mine?

Fuck, I have to wait for her.

"So nice of you to wait for me Helena'' the woman says.

"Stop calling me Helena''

"Sorry. What should I call you instead?'' She asks.

"Faith'' I spit.

"Well, Faith. That one is your dorm and room 19 is yours. Do you need more help?''

"No. I'm not 5, and I think I acctually could have find my room by myself but thanks''

''Oh. Bye Faith'' she's says and pulls out her hand to me.

I take a look at it, then in her eyes and says:

''In your dreams'' and turn around and starts to walk to my dorm.

A few students who look way to good for me take a look at me and starts to talk low about something.

Probably about me but I don't give a fuck.