You don't know my brain

Chapter 4

Tyler's POV

I mean..I'm not a very a talkative person.I don't even talk to my parents anymore.But my voice is good.I think so.

I was in my basement at 5 am.My parents weren't home so it's okay if i was being loud.I was writing a new song,it's called "Message,man".

I started singing...

"The loser hides behind / A mask of my disguise."

It's the type of disguise-perhaps that I use and it hides a person who feels like a failure .

"Who I am today / Is worse than other times."

I'm good at pretending to be someone I'm not, but today I'm feeling a little bit more true to the dark and hopeless part of myself.

"You don't know what I've done / I'm wanted and on the run / So, I'm taking this moment to live in the future."

I'm struggling, but i hope that this situation will improve.

"No it won't"

Ugh...

*7 am*

By that I time I was getting ready for school.It's Thursday.Today I have the algebra exam.One more day and this hell will be over.

-"Yes..finally a subject i can get a good grade at."

I put on my usual clothes,a pair of black skinny jeans and a black hoodie.Going to the kitchen to get a water bottle and I saw a note on the counter. (?!)

"Tyler we're leaving and won't be back until Monday.Here's 30 dollars,do whatever you want with them."

-"Well..guess I'll be home alone.I can now practise as long as I want."

My way to school was quite,although I heard someone walking behind me,but I brushed it away cause I though that I'm being paranoid again.

-"Hey Tyler,wait!!"

"Oh look it's your 'friend',the one that told you to meet but you never showed up,remember?!"

-"Yes.." I whispered to myself.

-"Huh..?!" Josh said.

I didn't speak.

-"Tyler why didn't you showed up yesterday?"

So he did came.Oh my I feel bad now.

-"Um...I was busy.I had to study." I said.

-"Oh okay then.Are you free today?"

Why is he asking me?Why is he even talking to me?

-"Umm..yeah."

"Idiot."

-"Cool.I'll be waiting for you outside school,after the exam."

Great.I have to hang out with him.Ugh I wanted to practise today.

We passed the school doors and that's when I lost Josh out of my sight.

Suddenly a teacher approached me and asked me to follow her.She led me to the principal's office and gestured me to sit on one of the chairs.Soon the principal came in with a lady behind her.

-"Goodmorning Tyler." She said smiling.Ugh.

-"Goodmorning Mrs.Smith.Am I in trouble or?"

-"Oh no honey,relax,you're not in trouble."

-"We just want to ask you some questions." Said the other lady.

-"Okay..."

-"So we noticed that your exam grades are not very good."

Oh god.

-"Yeah and..?"

-"So we want to know if you're okay.We want to know if there's anything that distracts you." Said the lady.

Oh god.Please don't tell me that they noticed my scars.Nothing like this have happened the other years of the exams.And I was having lower grades.Fuck my anxiety builds up.Okay Tyler okay it cool.Don't let them notice.

-"Um...I don't understand.I'm fine." Play it cool.Play it cool.

-"Oh really?Could you please show us your wrists?"

Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.

-"Um...no I can't."

-"And why?" Asks Mrs.Smith.

-"Because I don't want to."

-"Why?Are you hiding something?" Oh god please.Stop.

-"Of course I'm not..." Just then the bell rang and I run out of the office as fast as I could.

What.The.Heck.Was.That?How?How do they know?Oh my god.Did I not hid the scars?But I always hide them and I double check just to make sure.What's going on here?

Oh great now how am I supposed to write the damn exam when the only thing in my mind is "How did they found out I have scars."

OR MAYBE THEY DIDNT😏😏FIND OUT IN THE BEST CHAPTER
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