You don't know my brain

Chapter 5

Tyler's POV

Yesterday was the worst day.It's always like this.Whenever I'm happy something has to happen to fuck me up.I wrote the exam with shaking hands.One of the examiners asked me if I was okay.Of course I lied.Of course I said I was okay.

I woke up and my pillow was wet.Of course it would be wet,I was crying all night.I couldn't sleep.My anxiety was higher than ever.

I got out of bed.

-"Ugh finally the last day of the exams."

All I needed to do today was to avoid any teacher.If they see me they will take me to the principal and I don't that.

I went to the bathroom and just stared at myself in the mirror.

"Pathetic.That's what you deserve you piece of trash.Look at your scars.They are starting to fade away.What are you gonna do about it?"

Indeed,my scars were starting to fade away.And i feel lost without them.I have to do something.I opened my cupboard and took my sharpest "toy" (i don't wanna type "blade" cause it's triggering me a lot.)
I pressed it on my skin and let my emotions run.I looked down on my arm.Blood everywhere.I liked it.It made me feel numb.I hated emotions.They are too strong for me to deal with.I pressed my back to the door,slid down,closed my eyes and just waited.

When I opened my eyes it was 8 am and I have to be at school by 8:30 am.I stood up,cleaned everything up and went to get dressed,putting my usual clothes and made sure my wounds wouldn't be seen.

I went to the kitchen and the note with the money was still there.

-"Hmm..I haven't ate normally in 3 days.Maybe i should get something after school."

I took the money from the counter,opened the door and went to school.

Today's exam was philosophy.Gross.
(Literally my last exam was philosophy.)

As soon as I arrived to school I went straight to the bathroom avoiding any person on my way and stayed there until the bell rang.I waited a bit until everyone would go to their classes.

I slowly opened the door and checked the hallways.

Nobody.

I run as fast as I could to my class and I arrived just in time.

While I was writing the principal gets in the class.

F.U.C.K.M.E.

-"Is Tyler Joseph here?!" Can you please leave me alone woman.?!

-"Ahh there you are.I want you in my office as soon as you finish your exam okay?!" She said.

-"Yes Mrs.Smith." I lied.There's no way I'm going there.

Great now I have to plan my escape.

*Time skip*

I handed my exam and went out of the class.

I walked down the empty hallways when...

-"Tyler Joseph!!"

Shit.

I started running and obviously I wasn't looking in front of me cause I was too paniched so I bumped into someone.

-"Ouch...Oh god I'm so sorry...I wasn't looking." I apologised.

-"No I'm sorry...I wasn't paying attention."

-"Wait..Josh?!" I said surprised.

-"Oh Tyler..why were you running?!"

-"Long story..um...I have to go now.I'll talk to you later Josh!" I shouted.

-"Tyler wait!!" That's the last thing I heard before I run through the doors.

I was running and running.Not looking back.I finally stopped when I arrived at my door,I quickly got in and closed it behind me.

I looked at my hands and they were shaking.Hell,my whole body was shaking.I started hyperventilating and that leads to one thing.Panic attack.

I was all alone.No one was there to help me get through this.I couldnt think clearly.The voices in my head were getting louder.They were telling me to kill myself.That i deserve all this.And before everything went black I heard someone open the door.

-"Tyler?!"

THAT'S IT FOR NOW FOLKS.I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS STORY.I MIGHT UPDATE AGAIN IN A FEW HOURS SO STAY TUNED.
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