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Daily kayla entry #15
6/22/17 9:03 pm
Well i feel like a bitch. Today some friends decided to play a prank and pretened that my friend and her boyfriend were fighting. Of course it was all a joke. Hilarious. Idk if I've said this, but i never do well when people are fighting or when someone is mad at me or anything. Its hard. I've grown up with my parents yelling at me and eachother and my brothers. And it scares me. I can't stand people fighting. I know i fight a lot but when its someone i care about and i can't fix it, i get super stressed out. And yeah I'll sit in a corner listening to music and try to block out the yelling and I'll probably fucking cry but idk how not to. Damn I'll be strong sure, but not when i can't anymore. I was supposed to be at my safe place this week. And its already not anymore. Everything i wanted to make into a happy place is no longer happy. I can't do or say anything or see anything or read anything or hear anything without this stupid wall of depressed blocking me from enjoying anything for long. And yeah i get that it was a joke, but it seriously wasn't funny. Yeah i shouldn't take things seriously. But if i don't, lifes gonna kick me when im down. And i feel bad now. Because i feel like i overreacted. I already was scared of what would happen if they broke up. And i never know when luke is joking because he gets mad a lot. I dont want to write this because i didn't want my friend blaming herself. It wasn't her fault. And i know shes gonna read this and pass it on and crap but tbh.....i don't really care anymore. I don't. But i do. But i don't. I can sit and do nothing now because i don't feel like doing shit. Because thats life kicking me when im down. And well thats just that i guess. Never ask a guy why they did something stupid. You're either gonna get a "idk" or "cause it was funny."
So i guess thats it. I haven't given my friend entry #14 yet because i wrote it instead of typing it. But idk maybe im done with daily kaylas. Maybe im done with talking for a while. Maybe I'm done with everything. Maybe I'll die idk. Probably not but lets think positively.
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